Lately I've been down again, like I felt months ago. It's hitting again.
It's been a really really long time since I've felt the least heard in the room. I felt like no one was putting attention to me, they didn't hear me, they didn't look at me. I was in a room full of people, but I was alone.
Also I've been fighting with my body shape again, It's been, also, a really long time since I didn't feel sexy. I sometimes have to ask my sister if she still sees me the same way as always. I had to delete a reels of me having fun, living the best moment in a party because I didn't like how I looked. I just don't have the mental capacity to upload that now. I don't feel strong enough.
And I'm confusing my mind saying it's because of exterior factors, but the truth is that the problem it's on me.
I'm just a ghost smiling at everyone saying I'm the happiest. But it's a caos on the interior. I guess is a phase...
