I Don't Want To Go Back

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"How are you?"

I asked.

"I'm fine. Ikaw?"

"Okay lang din."

"How's Tati?"

"She's also fine. She's looking for you."

"I'll visit her soon."

I just nodded my head. A long pause happened between us, until he spoke again.

"Sy,"

I looked at him, waiting for what he was about to say.

"I can remember everything now."

My heart skipped a beat. I don't know but hot tears fell from my eyes. Is it tears of joy? Maybe.

"Good for you then." I gave him a smile, before wiping my tears away.

I'm so happy for him. Wow, he can remember me now.

"I... I want to start again, Sy."

Beat. I looked at him and forced a casual smile.

"Is it because of Tati? Don't worry about her, we can apply for co-parenting. I won't take her away from her father. Really."

"No, Sy."

"What?"

"I want you back."

***

Akala ko nahihibang lang si Kylo, pero hindi. Halos araw-araw na siyang napunta sa bahay. Iniisip ko na para kay Tati lang pero ayaw niya 'kong lubayan. I can't say na gusto kong lubayan niya ako, pero still! He's moving his way back to me! And... and I don't know what to do.

"Hindi mo na ba mahal?" Dana beside me spoke.

"Alam mo kahit kailan hindi ka nakatulong."

"Like serious question 'yon, sis." She was eating the mango graham I made, dito sa condo ko.

"Talk to my lawyer."

"I'll take to Kylo then."

Napapikit na lang ako sa kunsomisyon.

Sasagot pa sana ako nang makita kong nakasilip si Tati mula sa pintuan ng k'warto niya. I opened my arms to let her know that I want her to come towards me. Nasa salas kasi kami ni Dana at siya natutulog kanina sa k'warto.

Lumapit naman siya at yumakap sa akin.

"Mommy," she called.

"Yes, my love?" I planted kisses on her cheeks.

"Where's Daddy?"

I breathe out. Si Daddy na naman.

"Patirahin mo na kaya si Kylo rito, lagi naman siyang nandito. Nahiya pa kayo." Singit ni Dana, bago sumubo ng isang kutsarang mango graham.

Inismiran ko lang siya, bago ngitian si Tati na nakayakap pa rin sa akin.

"Daddy's at work, love. Nandito siya kanina ah, why are you still looking for him?"

"I miss him..."

Sila na magkasama kanina mula umaga hanggang tanghali bago pumasok ng trabaho si Kylo, tapos na-mi-miss pa niya.

"I'm not sure, baby, kung pupunta siya rito mamaya."

"Okay po..."

Dinner time when I heard the condo's doorbell rang. I knew it was Kylo. The moment I opened the door, his perfume went its way to my nostrils. Bango.