I Don't Want To Go Back

14

“I can’t believe it.. seriously?” I still can’t believe that it actually happened for real?

Nakauwi na kami lahat-lahat, currently outside my condo building.

“Surprisingly, yes, miss ma’am.” He smiled, showing his perfect white teeth.

“Wow..” I just can’t believe it, while still staring at him. Now I know why is he a bit familiar to me! “Small world, it is.”

“Yeah.. and thank you,” he suddenly opened.

“For?”

“For listening to my rants before.”

“You could still rant on me, Kylo. Anytime.” I wiggled my brows at him, while smiling.

He nodded and I stiffed in place when he suddenly put his hand above my head and pat it like for two times.

“Stop it. I look small.” Ilag ko pa.

Gosh, the height difference is so... ih.

“Hindi naman mas’yado, Sy. Sakto lang for me.”

“You know what? It’s getting late, you should go now.” I reached for his arm above my head and removed it away.

I didn’t realized it at first, that I was actually holding his arm and didn’t let it go. Until his eyes followed his arm to my grip. I immediately pull my grip away and acted nothing happened.

I heard him chuckled before speaking, “Go inside first, your hand is cold, Sy.”

“Ha? Oo, med’yo malamig na nga.” I hysterically chuckled. I wanted to hit my head right now. I’m fucking panicking!

Okay, Sy.. kalma tayo, ha?

“Go, hintayin kitang makapasok.” ... hindi naman kailangan, dude. P’wede ka namang umalis at umuwi na, bahala na ako pumasok mag-isa ko, ‘di ba?

I nodded my head and smiled at him, “right. I’ll go ahead— and ingat sa pag-d-drive, Kylo. Text me when you got home.”

“Noted, Ma’am.” He used his index and middle finger to jokily salute at me, that made me chuckled and shook my head before turning my back at him and walked inside— with a fucking smile on my fucking face!

Nasa binggit na ho ako ng pag-ibig. Can anyone help me up?

* * *

At exactly that night, I studied until 10PM and slept when 11PM hit the clock.

Kylo also texted me, “Home now, Sy. Don’t force yourself studying until morning, take a good night sleep. See you tomorrow, I’ll pick you up.”

We’ve decided to go at lunch time. Kaya balak ko nalang mag-aral from morning until before lunch. Hindi na rin ako mas’yadong na-d-distract nang dahil kay Kylo, pero aamin na akong paminsan kapag nasa kalagitnaan ako ng pagaaral, bigla-bigla nalang siyang mag-po-pop up sa utak ko kaya med’yo nawawala sa focus but then again I know my goals and priorities, kaya tuloy ang pagaaral.

I slept peacefully and early that night. I don’t know basta nakatulog ako kaagad. Hindi rin naman ako mas’yadong napagod sa naging usapan namin ni Kylo, and hindi rin ‘yun naging dahilan para hindi ako makatulog that night.

I had a peaceful sleep that night.

I woke up early also. Around 9AM, that’s early already for me. Because I usually woke up around 1PM, pero ang tulog ko nu’n mga 1AM din.

Sa buong buhay ko ngayon lang ako nahirapang mamili ng isusuot ko. But ended up wearing a fitted dress. It was a dark blue velvet dress fitted my body shape perfectly. It was sleeveless and I just wore a white cardigan dahil baka malamig.