𝐍𝐚𝐢𝐯𝐞 𝐒𝐡𝐚𝐝𝐢𝐚.

3

Tuesday, August 30- {4:32 p.m}

I'm at Sasha doing, as old people would say..."Picking up mi book".

Summer is almost over! I can't believe i'll be starting 11th grade next week!

I should've mentioned this earlier but yes, I have school next week.

I make sure to refresh my brain every summer before school cause this girl no do 'Dunce &' Boasty'.

Cyah go back a school and no know nothing.

Sasha and I are doing our regular quiz to see what we remember and what we need to improve on from our last semester.

Well...you can just say its just me because Sasha's attention is all in her phone.

Well a laugh and a swing foot.

"Sasha, come no!" I call her.

"Just give me a minute make me answer Jerome message, please," she pouts.

I say nothing.

Gio...

Him-

I haven't seen or heard from him since he dropped me off 3 days ago.

Not that I planned to.

Mmhm.

Kiss mi teeth.

I really enjoyed myself that night though.

Wish I could thank him once more.

When he dropped me off, the man blazed off like him have nine lives.

I still think about the name "Shotta" and why would they give him that name...

But the girl in my head keeps telling me that sometimes I'm a bit too observant and it's none of my business, and I agree with her.

She is right.

It's not my business.

I took his kindness too far- to think that he likes me like that and I should no more.

He was just trying to be sweet.

And I really appreciate it.

That night helped me to take a lot of stuff out my head.

Yahh overthink again Shadz.

I know, but I can't help it.

I know i'm young, but I tend to fall in love very easily, just by some simple thing and it's not healthy.

Because I didn't have a father figure, I search for love in boys, and no, I don't go hoeing around.

I just...love too easily and too hard.

My ex took advantage of me because of that.

He also tried to use my body, but yo girl have har head pann har body.

I walked away.

Even thought it was hard, I did.

Yuh just too...Naive, Shadia.

I sigh mentally.

It's true.

I highly agree.

But...such is life.

I'm growing, and the more I grow, I realize somethings.

And I change somethings to better myself.

One day, one day...all the bettering WILL come to something.