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CHAPTER 20

Chapter 20

Johannes Pov

Colt was sleeping beside me, using my chest as a pillow, and having his arms snake around my neck. Tumingin ako dito. He was peacefully sleeping. His face shows peace, calmness, serenity, and being so comfy. Colt was actually a big baby too. If he thinks that I'm the only one who wants to be babied, well, he is too. He is a big baby who carries his tantrums around. 

I kissed Colt's forehead. Colt is not a showy type of person. He wasn't able to show what he really felt. He was having a hard time expressing himself. I feel like he used to isolate his feelings inside him. I feel like he used to keep his sufferings to himself. Like I said before, he acted so tough and rigid, yet he was so fragile. No. He was already broken when I met him.

I admit that I also need fixing, but Colt needs it the most. I'm afraid that one day I won't be able to pick up the broken pieces of him. Natatakot ako na baka mahuli na ako bago pa siya buuin ulit.

Colt once told me about his family, and I could safely say that what happened to them broke him into pieces. And as his boyfriend, I'm ready to pick up the shards of him, even if it means hurting myself.

I hugged my beibu.

We're actually both topless under the thin white sheets. The sun outside the window is now too high, yet we are still here in our bed. We're still locked and stuck to each other. 

When Colt's hand landed on my chest, napatingin ako doon bago ko iyon inangat at dinala sa labi ko. Tinitigan ko ang mga daliri niya particularly his ring finger. At naalala ko ang gabing iyon...

Flashback

Kapwa kami hinihingal ni Colt. Nakasandal ako sa puno ng kahoy at hawak ko sa dalawang kamay ko ang isang hand gun. Nakataas ito at handang bumaril anumang oras habang si Colt naman ay nasa harapan ko, nakaluhod at naglo-load sa baril niya. Both of us are soaking in each other's sweat from the long run and dodging the bullets.

I looked at Colt's leg, kung saan siya natamaan kanina. Parang wala lang sa kanya ang sugat na iyon kaso pinapahirapan siya noong palakarin mag-isa. His wound was bleeding.

"I'm ready. Let's go." anito at kinasa ang baril.

Tatayo na sana siya nang abutin ko ang kamay niya.

Nagtataka itong tumingin sa akin. Madalim ang paligid at tunog ng mga insekto, yapak ng tao sa mga tuyong dahon, at paminsang tunog ng baril ang naririnig namin sa buong kagubatan. Sa gitna ng kadiliman ang buwan sa itaas lang ang mag-iilaw sa amin ngayon. The smell of gun powder wafted into the air.

Umahon ako sa pagkakasandal ko sa malaking puno ng kahoy at lumuhod din ako kagaya ni Colt.

"Beibu," I breathed. "No matter what happens here--"

Nagtagis ang bagang niya.

"Save your fucking eulogy later."

"Beibu, I'm serious."

Nanliit ang mata niya sa akin.

"I'm also serious Johannes." Winaksi niya ang kamay kong nakahawak sa kanya. "Di mo ba alam na tinutugis na tayo ngayon? Di mo ba alam na baka ikamatay natin itong kaartehan mo na 'to, Johannes?"