Inside The Mind | Poetry

Inner

I want to fit in
In this new environment
But my mouth seems to be shut
Whenever I try to talk

If I talk, will they listen?
If I talk, will they appreciate it?

I'm scared
Scared to the core
That no one wants to be my friend

I've been quiet and mute
Not wanting to be bullied more
Maybe the past is still getting to me

Will they appreciate my personality?
Will they stay if I show myself?

These inner thoughts haunt me
These what ifs plague my mind

What if they are annoyed?
What if they just pity me?
What if they think less of me?
What if they laugh at me?

These inner thoughts and fears
Will never leave, I know
But will I ever overcome it?

Will these inner thoughts disappear?

-J