The night sky is
much more beautiful at this angle
than it has ever been
throughout my entire life.The stars look as though they're in layers,
multiple glowing brighter than others
due to being closer to the Earth.
I can even spot
some of the different colors
of each star.My amazement
turns into a frown
as I look at Yoongi
gazing up at the stars as well
and taking deep breaths,
cherishing the fresh air."This must not be interesting to you."
Yoongi looks back at me
with minor bewilderment.
"What do you mean?""I don't want to sound rude,
but wouldn't seeing nothing but
white dots on a black background
be boring to you?"Once he hears that,
Yoongi lets out a laugh."In any other scenario, yes.
But I see this as
the perfect place to be."I keep looking at him
and he keeps looking at me.
Sort of like
that staring contest we had a month ago.But it's also different,
because it isn't a contest this time.
It's just him
choosing to stare at me
and me
choosing to stare at him.Yoongi lets out another laugh,
which makes me blink."I have so much to tell you, Tae.
But, I'm going to have to sum it up
so that it doesn't ruin the moment too much."Yoongi sighs
and I catch myself
glancing at his lips."You're so special to me.
So...important.
I don't know how to say this..."
He chuckles again.I stay still
and wait for Yoongi to tell me himself
like he would for me."I know it hasn't been that long,
and that I really should've waited a bit longer,
but this kind of opportunity
just jumped out to me.""You don't have to accept.
We can always continue as friends
if you would prefer that,"I notice
that Yoongi's look doesn't faulter at that possibility,
like he wouldn't feel any different
if I refused what he's offering."but basically,
I like you, Tae.
And...
I want us to continue life together
hopefully with a stronger relationship
than friendship."When he sees that I'm not answering
he nods,
understanding something."I know it's not normal,
but what do expect from
a boy with monochromacy
and a boy with synesthesia?"I let out a laugh
in hopes to help Yoongi to relax his muscles.He smiles again
and my plan seems to work
as I see his shoulders ease a little."But really.
We don't have to be affectionate in public
if that makes you uncomfortable.
You should at least have your family know
if you do accept me,
but we don't have to tell anyone else
if that isn't what you want."I smile at him
and hold his hand.
"You don't need to say 'if'
when it comes to me accepting you."The smile I see on his face then
is enough to make
all of the stars in the universe
shine a little brighter."Yes?"
I give him a nod.
"Forever, yes."Gently,
I feel Yoongi's hand let go of mine
to hold my cheek."Is it okay
if I kiss you?"My heart can be heard in my ears
and I lick my lips.
"I...
I've never kissed someone before..."Yoongi lets out a hum
that's mixed with quiet giggles.
"It's okay.
First kisses are always awkward anyways.
Better to get it over with.
Just...focus on yourself during it, okay?
Let me know how you feel."I nod.
"Okay.
Uh... You can kiss me."Yoongi rubs my cheek with his thumb
before slowly setting his lips onto mine.I have a second
of internal panic,
not knowing what to do,
then I remember the advice
Yoongi had given me.Focus on myself.
I start to think about the way I'm
lifting my hand up
to hold onto Yoongi's shoulder.
How it feels better
to kiss back
rather than just be kissed.Just as I get used to the feeling,
Yoongi separates us
and stares at me like
I would stare at the sky.
"...How was that?"I let out a laugh.
"I'd say that the pressing against our lips' sensitive nerve endings
gave my brain a burst of oxytocin and dopamine."Yoongi smiles.
"Maybe one day
you can add testosterone to that list."I can feel my face
instantly go red
while Yoongi laughs.
"It hasn't even been an hour!"My comment doesn't matter much
once I start laughing along.I don't think I have ever felt
so much dopamine and serotonin
around someone my age.
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I See Colors | Taegi
FanfictionTaehyung has synesthesia, a condition where one sense is paired with another, such as hearing a sound for a shape or seeing a color for a word. Despite his colorful world, he can still see Yoongi, a boy who can only see in shades of grey. Started: A...
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