Entry 42 - August 2022
Date: 2/8/2022
Detachment
He said, currently no. So I'm gonna try to detach myself from this dusty ass situation. Sigh. He's not gonna let me sulk tho. Getting in my face, making me smile. Stupid man. I'll make him regret it. Lol
Date: 4/8/2022
The Reason
Got curious and asked why no. He emphasized that he said currently no. He went on about his drinking and flirting, which I know of and don't really have much issue with. He eventually got to the true point of him not feeling like he's worthy, and needing to be better cause I deserve better in his mind, and therefore he doesn't feel like he deserves me right now. Love him but want to slap him. Oh and he's not ready to give up drinking yet. Men.
Date: 5/8/2022
Check-ins
Been noticing him checking in on me on mornings and letting me know when he leaves. A bit strange, cause he does that with his other friends but now doing it with me. He hasn't been this intent in a long time. Maybe I'm a regular friend now, or he's finally taking me feeling excluded seriously. Either way it's kinda sus but sweet.
Date: (6)7/8/2022
Unblocked?
It seems my writers' block is finally fading. Possibly. Writing a little bit today.
Date: 30/8/2022
Hopefully Not
Sigh, I feel weird. Might be expecting. Holiday tomorrow so I'll be resting. Might buy some clothes next month. Hopefully I'm just a little ill and will recover so I can go out with my friend.
Date: 31/8/2022
Relax & Pray
Hoping for the best in my life right now. So much pain in different aspects. Even my eyes be hurting.
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