Dark Hearted || Narry AU ✔

Chapter 19- Accepting Weaknesses

"I promise. I'm sorry for leaving in the first place." He answered back sincerely, and I smiled softly. I remembered the conversation we had last night, how upset his family was when he showed up, and how he got drafted before he could try and come back. How they had trained him, beaten him to teach him a lesson. Everything making me sad and angry at the people who caused this lad so much pain. Who took away his spark. But here, this lad sitting on my bed now, is a lad with a bright spark that can't be taken away.

"Get dressed, we need to head out." I told him, not a command but rather an affectionate suggestion. He nodded, small smile pasted to his face and I couldn't help but the fondness that probably radiated off of me just looking at him. He got dressed quickly while I slipped on my boots and buckled on my sword, my necklace bouncing on my chest reminding me of the lad just opposite me. I finished first, allowing me to watch the lad affectionately. It honestly scared me a bit, but I've wanted a feeling like this for so long that I wasn't willing to let it go despite the fear. When he finished, he glanced over at me and blushed lightly when he saw me already looking over. I smiled, cautiously reaching my hand out, waiting to see if he would hold it. He did, a bashful smile on his face and I beamed.

We made our way out of my quarters, and out to the deck where the crew was waiting. Harry squeezed my hand tightly before dropping it and walking behind me. They were in a circle, and I knew before even breaking through it that Zayn was in the center of it, and Liam was probably crying very close to him or trying to stay strong for the raven haired lad. I broke through the crowd, spotting a special boat hovering over the edge of the ship, intricate carvings covering the sides, and inside was Zayn, wrapped in a black silk material, and probably a hell of a lot of rum. Liam was hugging Louis tightly, eyes red rimmed and I knew that my tears were trying to leave as well but I didn't allow them to. I took a deep breath, stepping into the center of the circle knowing that it was time to make a speech before we set him off to be part of the sea.

"Brothers, we've come together like this under unfortunate circumstances. The loss of a good mate, a brother, a lover, a hero, a helping hand and an amazing listener. There are so many things to say about him, and even though we truly do have forever, he doesn't. Zayn was the person that encouraged everything, that made me see that feelings didn't mean weakness. But not only that, but that we should accept our weaknesses, love ourselves and our vulnerability. Zayn was someone that cared so much, not only for each and every one of us, but for strangers he had never spoken a word to, for lads that shouldn't have meant as much to him as they did. He had a hard life before joining us, a life he escaped, a life he helped others escape from. He had a hard exterior, but we all knew him as the big softie. The guy that was madly in love with Liam, the lad that encouraged us to face our fears and to accept our weaknesses, the lad that allowed us to feel that love wasn't something that would hurt you but rather something that strengthened you and gave you a reason to fight. He lost his life so he could die with Liam by his side. He reached his end goal, lived a happy long life. He plundered and stole and killed, but he saved and encouraged and loved. Today we set him out to sea, where he will be one with it. And where he will forever be with us, not only in our hearts but all around us. For Zayn, we will love, we will accept our weaknesses, see past our vulnerability, and find love in loss. Goodbye Zed, we'll be seeing you." And with those final words I lit a match, throwing it into the small boat and watched as the flames licked at him. I pushed the boat out, with the help of Liam, and the rope lift that was around it lowered the boat to the sea, where he would become part of it. I knew, somewhere Zayn was smiling down on us, but it didn't help the knowledge that he was gone.

Harry walked up behind me, wrapping and arm around my waist and I pulled him into a hug, my nose nudging his neck. I felt safe here, felt loved. I looked up at the sky, smiling even with the tears in my eyes. I would accept my weakness, and I would allow it to make me stronger.

Harry was my downfall, but he would also be my strength.

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A little fluffy and a little sad. Now they will be able to move on from Zayn's death.

Will they all be able to move on?

Will Harry and Niall only get closer or will something separate them again?

Does Harry feel the same as Niall or is he just trying to survive?

Why was Harry's family unhappy to see him again?

Will Liam be able to move on?

Will they find the elixir? If they do will it work?

Would you like alternate endings?

Where will Brad come in again?

Will they hit more obstacles on their way to the third clue?

Is the third clue the elixir or the final step to finding the elixir?

Does anyone want another Q&A? (Comment questions here)

So, for those of you who read 'Happily Ever After' you know it's on hold. BUT in its place will be this new lilo story I started called 'Toy Guns' only because I couldn't decide on which story to start next. So pretty please, go check it out for me? It would mean so much to me. Comment on it if you like it? And I've also started a story called 'Reasons' and it's a story that'll have a message and I think it's extremely important. So check that out too if you'd like?

Real life question of the day:

What do you think is your weakness?

Dedication to the commenter that can:

Guess my best subjects in school? (I had 2)

OR

Guess my favorite character off of Disney's Hercules?

100 votes and comments for an update by Thursday?

{Pretty please check out 'toy guns' and 'reasons' for me?}

[p.s. I want to let you all know that I am always here for you. Sometimes you feel alone, you feel like things wont get better. But it will. There's a reason you're on this earth, and it's a great one. You will do big things, and achieve amazing goals. YOU are the future, so no matter what anyone says, no matter how you feel, keep fighting that battle. You can't have a rainbow without a little rain yeah? You're all so incredibly amazing, each and every one of you is perfect and special and beautiful and caring, and you all deserve the world. Never forget that. And if you ever need to talk to anyone, message me. I promise I'll respond. :) No one should ever feel alone.]

Xx Val