Abused by the Deceptive Professor [BxB]

Chapter 34

"Abused by the Deceptive Professor"

[CHAPTER 34]

(Warning: this chapter is not edited.)

TULALA.

Nakadikit lamang ang tingin ko sa white board na nasa harapan ko dahil hanggang ngayon ay hindi pa rin mawala-wala sa isipan ko ang mga nangyari. Hindi ko alam, tila nakatatak na yata ang lahat sa utak ko at kahit anong gawin ko ay ayaw nang maalis nito sa utak ko.

Everyday, I never skipped a day on asking myself kjng bakit ganito ang nararamdaman ko. I shouldn't be feeling these emotions, pero hindi ko talaga mapigilan. I feel guilty for throwing harsh words to him; on denying him at hanggang ngayon ay hindi ko pa rin siya kayang harapin--specially sa nakapa-unexpected na pag-amin niya sa'kin.

One month.

It's been one damn month and I still can't unhear those words coming from his month. Isang buwan na magmula noong umamin ss akin si sir Marcus na gusto niya raw ako, at hindi ko alam kung maniniwala ako o hindi.

But… but there are three things to consider in this situation.

I d-dont… like him,

He has a girlfriend,

…and lastly, Dad will DEFINITELY hate about hearing this nonsense.

'Yan ang tatlong rason kung bakit mas pinipili kong pigilan ang namumuong pakiramdamn sa dibdib ko, dahil sa loob ng isang buwan isa lang ang napagtanto ko. I also grow feelings for my damn Chemistry Professor, and I hate it.

Damn it, this must be stopped, Denise! Make it stoo before it's too late.

Isang buwan ko na ring iniiwasan ang lalaking 'yon, at mukhang naiintindihan naman niya ang ikinikilos ko and surprisingly, he gave me some space. Whenever we meet accidentally at the hallway of our building, tipikal na student-professor greetings lamang ang nangyayari sa aming dalawa.

I don't know if he already forget about his confession to me and acted like nothing happened o talagang nakikisakay lamang siya sa gusto ko, hindi ko na alam!

It's currently our history class and I'm starting to get bored kaya napasandal na lamang ako sa kinauupuan ko at napabuntong-hininga. Ngunit napahinto ako at nanlaki ang mga mata nang muli ko nanamang narinig ang pagkulog ng tyan ko, and good thing it wasn't loud enough to draw attention kaya napayuko na lamang ako.

Damn it, I can feel my mouth watering again at may isang bagay nanaman akong gustong kainin pero hindi ko alam kung ano 'yon. Hindi ko na rin alam kung anong nangyayari sa'kin for these past days, ngunit tila napapadalas na ang pagka-crave ko ng mga pagkain.

I remember the time noong nasa kalagitnaan kami ng klase, my mouth has been watering to ear sour mangoes dipped in mayonnaise. Mabuti na lamang at considerate ang prof namin at that time and she let me eat a bunch of mangoes at the very back of the classroom as long as I'm listening to her discussion daw.

Hindi ko alam pero mukhang mauulit nanaman 'yon. Now, I'm craving for a pasta topped with mayonnaise. This is so freaking weird, but I can't help it!

Hindi ko alam kung saan ko nakuha 'to, pero takot akong magpakonsulta sa doctor. I hate doctors and now I'm traumatized on visiting hospital. I don't have an idea kung epekto ba 'to ng pag-amin sa akin ni sir Marcus, but after our last encounter ay napansin kong mas lalo akong naging sensitive.

I often laugh at nonsense and sometimes cry at some small, unnecessary things. Nasabihan pa akong baliw ni Jerome nang mapansin kung ano man ang nangyayari sa'kin pero isinawalang-bahala ko nalang 'yon.