a/n : this is a first person pov, thanks for the insane love on this book i really appreciate it 🤍
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Dear diary that I willingly write because I'm stuck behind bars and Mark and Haechan were making out in front of me...
Since I'm too bored let me just blurt this emotional shit out of myself.
I don't know when or how specifically all of this started
But I will never forget about it
Not a single memory core can top this one event
In where I fall in love
To Huang Renjun.
We started as normal friends who go to classes together, study together.
It was the world and us.
I didin't realize how insanely deep in love I am with him,
until Yangyang, his brother snapped it out of my head.
He asked,
"What would you do if Renjun suddenly hates you
And leaves you without noticing it?"
I bit my lips, and answered
"I'd cry."
And fuck it, if he does that in real life, I will never stop crying.
It's the simplest things about him that makes me happy
His smiles.
His love for cats and arts and biology.
But one day, it became so hard to be beside him
Because of fucking Na Jaemin.
I hated him since day one I saw him walking through the corridors.
And you know what it felt when I saw Renjun and Jaemin together having sex?
Devastated.
And that pent up anger makes me the miserable dick I am now.
I was so angry
I forgot the first reason I wanted to be with Renjun
and I hurted him.
So now, here I am
Being stuck in this unrequited love cycle.
He is with Jaemin I can sense it
But if it makes him happy
Might as well
I start moving on
And seek my own happiness.
Whatever happens,
I will always love you
Huang Renjun.
YOU ARE READING
the contract : renmin ʚ˚̣̣̣͙ɞ ✔️
Fanfictionwarning : every chapter contains smut 🔞 in which a quiet student huang renjun makes a deal with mafia leader and student, na jaemin about his little dirty secret " i know you would do this for lust " " and if i say i'm head over heals for you, wou...
