Getting His Attention (Completed)

Chapter 48

GHA Chapter 48

"What? May ibang babae kang pinapunta?!" Kyela gasped in disbelief.

"Yes, si Madilyn," I plainly replied. "Our store manager. She's also my assistant. I asked her to meet Cyron on my behalf. I-report niya na lang sa'kin if ever may mahalaga silang pinag-usapan... or kahit hindi na pala."

She didn't respond. Tulala siyang nakatingin sa'kin lalo na sa mga isinalaysay kong eksena mula sa unang pagkikita namin muli ni Cyron hanggang sa pangyayari kahapon.

She's sitting on my bed while eating snacks. Nasa study table naman ako, nasimsim ng wine.

Lumandas ang tingin ko sa singsing ni Kyela. Kinasal na siya last year. She's happily married to Ian.

Sa aming magkakaibigan, siya 'yung takot sa commitment pero mauuna pa palang ikakasal.

Life is really full of amazing and terrible surprises.

"Do you think... we had a healthy relationship before?" I asked out of the blue, staring blankly at my table.

"Ni Cyron? Well, yes," sagot niya. "Balance din ang harot at aral. Match ang personality. He was disciplined and calm; you were aggressive and impulsive. He was serious, and you were playful. Despite that, hindi kayo nahirapan mag-adjust sa isa't isa. Super complement kayo."

Kyela took a sip of her drink and looked up at the ceiling. Tila may inaalala pa.

"Kilala n'yo rin talaga ang isa't isa. He understood you and knew how to handle you, even when you were at your worst. Ikaw din. You knew to analyze him and get along with him, even if sometimes he was unpredictable and distant."

Natuwa ako sa narinig ngunit napawi rin agad.

"Actually parang wala kayong issue? Or mayroon. If counted 'yung may ilan kayong hindi inaamin. And small arguments pero magbabati rin kalaunan."

"So... almost."

"But I still consider it healthy relationship. But, I also consider it a curse. Kasi once na naranasan mo na 'yan at nawala, it's hard to restart, and you'll constantly miss that kind of experience."

Indeed. Mahirap mag-move on 'pag galing sa healthy relationship. Mahirap kalimutan ang taong nagbigay at nagparamdam sa'yo nang ganoon.

"Ako lang 'tong toxic." I woefully smirked.

Hindi nakasagot si Kyela. But I believe silence means yes.

Sarili ko lang din talaga ang sinisisi ko kung bakit ako nahihirapan at nasasaktan ngayon.

"You know, I was glad that I met him. But I wasn't the best version of myself when he met me. Ang malas ni Cyron. Sana hindi niya na lang ako nakilala... o hindi ko siya nakita para hindi ko na nagulo ang buhay niya."

"You might still be the old Chen. You were static, little or no development. Paulit-ulit mo lang siguro gagawin ang nakasanayan mo kung hindi mo siya nakilala. No offense meant, but you chase temporary things. Look now, you finally know what you deserve."

She's right. But... I didn't deserve Cyron. Alam ko kung ano 'yung deserve ko, ngunit hindi naman ako deserving para kay Cyron. I didn't have something to bring to the table. I didn't have something to offer to him; only receiving.

I was so unfair.

"Hindi naman mali na nakilala mo siya. It had a reason. However, we couldn't erase the fact that you did something wrong to him. Mali talaga 'yung nagawa natin noon."

Napayuko ako at kusang tumango.

Sobrang mali talaga kahit sinubukan kong itama. I tried to clear his name before. Pumunta ako sa Areniego noon, mismo sa presinto upang umamin at mawala na 'yung bad record ni Cyron. However, they dismissed my plea. Matagal na raw iyon at na-settle na. I don't know if they sealed his record. Since si Mr. Alejandrino ang nag-asikaso, he probably ordered them to erase Cyron's police record.