Getting His Attention (Completed)

Chapter 41

GHA Chapter 41

I had a sleepless night dealing with my own thoughts. I made myself believe that there was nothing to worry about, but I couldn't just brush it off, so I entertained all the possibilities and everything that might have happened afterward.

If he's really engaged... what about me, then? What will happen to me?

Maiiwang luhaan?

I stared blankly at the ceiling. I was getting emotional again until I heard a knock. Pinahid ko ang luha na hindi ko namalayang naglandas sa aking pisngi. Bumukas 'yung pinto at wala sa sariling nilingon ang dumungaw.

"G-Good morning ma'am, Jillian..." humina ang boses ni Yaya Rosalie at nag-alangan akong kausapin nang mapansin ang kalagayan ko. "Uh... Nariyan po ang mga kaibigan ninyo. Naghihintay sa ibaba."

Matamlay akong lumakad at hinarap ang mga kaibigan ko na nasa sala.

"Si Chen ba 'yan?" asked by Jerick, then awkwardly smiled at me. "No offend. Malayo kasi ang ayos mo kahapon sa ngayon. Are you... sick?"

"Anong sadya ninyo rito?" diretso kong tanong.

"You told us to drop by here. Nag-chat ka kagabi. Akala ko sasabay ka pumasok sa amin?" Kyela raised her brow.

"Hindi na pala ako papasok. I'm not in the mood."

"Ay sis! We are all not in the mood, but this is crucial. Finals na, and graduating student remember?" si Jerick.

"Jerica is right. 'Yung thesis pa natin kailangan na matapos. Then, next next week may orientation daw ata regarding sa internship," Kyela reminded.

Oh crap. Thinking about acads while having an emotional breakdown is a kind of ridiculous torture I am not mentally prepared for.

Sumama lalo ang loob ko.

"Do I have another choice?" I heaved a heavy sigh. "All right. Papasok na. Basta... itago ninyo ako kay Cyron," humina ang boses ko.

They exchanged glances silently.

"Uh... what's going on?" usisa ni Kyela na may bahid ng pag-aalala.

"Alam kong may ideya na kayo..." I faintly smiled. "Basta! That's the reason. Huwag na muna natin pag-usapan."

My friends were bothered and hesitant, yet they cooperated. Siniguro nilang hindi kami magtatagpo ng landas ni Cyron pagdating namin sa university. They were as if my lookout.

It was a relief that Cyron was out of sight for half of my class period. Subalit hindi rin ako mapakali dahil nagpaparamdam siya through text. He sent a morning greeting, like usual. Nasundan iyon ng pagtatanong kung nasaan raw ako.

I turned off my phone.

I was having a mental warfare again. I was freaking preoccupied with questions, what-ifs, and other concerns regarding Cyron's engagement.

Hindi ko pa 'yon mismo nakumpirma sa kaniya. Actually, I waited for him to call the whole night, or at least text me that he had something to discuss with me in person.

However, I received nothing.

Then, all of a sudden, I realized that I was not prepared to talk to him yet. Ayoko pala na kausapin niya ako tungkol sa bagay na 'yon. The reason? I honestly didn't know.

Sabay na umandar marahil ang pagiging overthinker at emosyonal ko.

I even decided to avoid him, to not cross our path for now, because... what if he really wanted to see me just to discuss his engagement? Baka pina-plano niya ng hiwalayan ako at naghahanap lamang ng tiyempo para sabihin 'yon.