I pick my phone up in an attempt to stay out of bed, I was going to start living again. I have to for Nell. She can't be anxious about going to work because I'm home alone, she shouldn't be stressed out whilst she's doing the things she loves, and she shouldn't have to have people come to check on me in the middle of the day. I turn my phone on after having it off throughout the night because my sisters were bugging in the group chat so I turned it off to stop the notifications coming through. Nell did the same too both of us having enough of the girls blowing up our phones about designs for their next line. I want to support them but it was 1 in the morning and I just wanted to sleep. 

I smiled at my lock screen of my beautiful fiancé

She was meant to be shooting Florence but she got bored whilst waiting for her to change and took a picture of herself to test the lighting and stuff and I saw it on her files when she was going through the reels of the shoot with me

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She was meant to be shooting Florence but she got bored whilst waiting for her to change and took a picture of herself to test the lighting and stuff and I saw it on her files when she was going through the reels of the shoot with me. I asked if I could have it and she agreed easily, she literally agreed to anything I asked as of recently. She looked stunning in it. 

I had to keep going for her I had to keep fighting for her I wanted forever and I won't let forever be cut short because I couldn't get out of bed. "I love you," I whispered to the picture. I haven't said it to her nearly as much as I should have. 

"Okay, I got this." I unlocked my phone and messaged Scarlett asking if she was free today. She replied instantly saying yes and asking if I was okay, I'm assuming Nell told her she was out today. I said I was fine and we should do something and so we made plans. I sat on one of the chairs at the end of our bed to avoid getting back in bed and being sucked into the comfy sheets for another day. When the plans were made I texted Ashley telling her she didn't need to come over as I had plans today, she seemed surprised but agreed to it. 

I showered without being prompted for the first time in a while normally it takes Nell carrying me into the bathroom and undressing me to get in the shower. I got ready for the day putting on light make-up and a cute outfit feeling better the more effort I put into myself. I make the bed putting the cushions on it like Nell did every day and then I took the breakfast plates down to the kitchen and cleaned them up. 

I went into the utility room, she had done all our laundry it was folded up in neat piles some of her dresses were hung up. She had been taking care of everything I expected to come here and it had been in a right state, she hates doing laundry she puts it off until she has no underwear left and even then she'll just go without, it was hot but it annoyed me and for her to actually have kept on top of it was really thoughtful of her. 

I took the clean clothes to our closet and put them away before going down and grabbing our mail I flipped through it and took out mine and took Nell's to her office I laid it on the desk and turned to leave before turning back to the desk, her notebook was open I turned it around and read over her notes before realising she was writing a song which brought my attention to the guitar that was on a stand int he corner of her room. She was playing again. I smiled the thought of her playing warming my heart knowing it was something she'd do with her dad. She'd be on the beach with him and they'd play together and write music and she was doing that again she was healing, slowly but healing. I put her things back before going back downstairs to get my things together to leave. 

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