Broken // The Avengers

Chapter 39

I am sitting at the table in silence while the rest of the avengers talk away during our lunch "you feel guilty" Venom says "I don't" I whisper "of course you do" he continues "why would I feel that way?" I ask "because you enjoyed it" Venom adds but I just roll my eyes "everything okay darling?" Loki whispers, I look to my side, I hadn't realised he sat next to me "everything is fine" I say "I heard you slapped him across the face" Mr Stark adds "he pissed me off" I say with a shrug "okay well that just shows that we cannot piss off Angelina" Sam adds and I roll my eyes "we're having a party tonight, to celebrate all the wins we have had so far" Mr Stark says and we all nod "Angelina could you sing for us tonight?" He asks "yeah" I reply with a smile "okay then" Mr stark replies

After lunch I decided to just train until I had to get ready "you realise that you're here the most when you're pissed off?" Venom asks "yes I am aware" I reply "Steve is watching you" Venom says, the moment I process his words my metal hand rips through the punching bag sending it flying into the air and crashing down "don't stop on my account" Steve says, I look over at him, he's in a tank top leaning against the door frame "want to join me?" I asks and he nods, he comes closer and we begin to fight "why did you leave?" He asks "no reason" I lie "you feel guilty?" Steve asks, I don't reply "you do" he says stopping, I trip him over and straddle him "no" I lie "you do" he whispers, I look into his eyes while my heart pounds against my rib cage "kiss him you fool" Venom growls, I take a deep breath and get up before running away. I bump directly into Loki causing me to literally bounce backwards, I groan annoyed "will you get out of my way" I growl before running into my room, I close the door panting hard

"What the hell was that?" Venom yells while showing himself "I cannot do this V, I can't be in love with Steve and Bucky. I can't I just can't, I can't break them up" I say throwing myself on the bed on top of something, I move over and see a letter "what is that?" Venom asks "I don't know" I reply confused, I open the letter and see Bucky's hand writing

Hey doll,

I am about to go into the ice, it took longer than I had expected. Steve called and told me how you're doing, I have been thinking of everything I said to you before I left and everything that I haven't.

It was selfish of me to even ask you to wait for me, you deserve happiness even if it isn't with me. After everything you have been through you deserve to be loved by somebody better than I was, you deserve someone who will feel like home rather than stress you out every second of the day because of my own lack of security.

I am sorry for the way I treated you in my moments of anger, I am sorry for walking away from you during this time in your life. I am sorry for not being able to be the person that you deserve.

I love you more than life itself, and I cannot wait for the moment I see you again.

I hope to see you soon,

~Bucky Barnes

I read over the letter more times than I can count as the tears flood down my face "he told me to move on" I whisper "he officially broke up with us" Venom says, I set the letter down on the bed and bring my knees up to my chest, burying my head into them while sobbing hard. I can feel Venom rubbing his head against me as if attempting to comfort me the way he always has

"I need to- I need to get ready" I finally say after hours of uncontrollable sobbing "wear the violet dress" Venom says and I nod, I have a shower and finally get ready for the party "I shouldn't have accepted to sing" I say while putting the letter he sent on top of the bed side table "this will make you feel better" Venom says, I give him a nod and leave my room "may I accompany you?" Loki asks, I give him a small nod as we walk to the party room together "I hear your partner left you" Loki says and I raise an eyebrow "I wanted to say I am sorry that this happened to you, not that I have any experience in that field" Loki blurts "it had to happen, it wasn't my choice but it did" I reply truthfully, we walk into the party room and the first thing to catch my eyes was Sharon touching Steve's chest and leaning in. He doesn't stop her, they kiss for a second

Steve pulls away and looks directly at me, I turn around quickly and impulsively pull Loki down by the collar of his suit and smash my lips onto his, he doesn't pull away, instead he pulls me closer to him

Flashbacks of the moments with Bucky overwhelms me, the way his lips feel against mine and the way his cold metal arm has always soothed me. "Angelina Romanoff" Mr Starks voice echoes, I pull away quickly, glance at Steve who is staring in clear disbelief. I was quickly to the stage and stand in front of the mic with all eyes on me, the memories with Bucky are still flashing through my mind. I begin to sing 'thinking of you by Katy Perry" while the tears run down my cheeks, I try to remember about all the good things we have been through "another one" someone yells from the audience making me laugh "okay then" I reply before clearing my throat and beginning to sing "baby by Madison Beer" I swing my hips from side to side to the beat of the song, Steve has his eyes glued to me, I watch as Sharon gets frustrated and walks away. A smile creeps on my face as I am now flooded with memories of Steve

I feel so confused at this moment unsure why my mind I trying to kill me slowly at Bucky's departure and sending me into jealous fits because Steve gives attention to somebody else "you're jealous of Steve, he would be a very yummy rebound" Venom says, I ignore his voice at the back of my head as I sing one song after the other until my throat can no longer take it

I walk out of stage and directly towards the bar where I instantly down a bottle of tequila until it was finished before grabbing another "why did you kiss Loki?" Steve asks, I look over at him m "I-I um was a little bit jealous" I admit "jealous?" He asks "yes" I say "I am also way too sober and way too emotional for this conversation Steve" I say while walking away only to get followed by Steve "Steve go back to the party" I say turning around and leaning against my room door "not until you tell me what's wrong" Steve says clearly worried "fine you really want to know?" I raise my voice and he nods "Bucky officially broke up with me over a fucking letter, I saw you kissing Agent Skank. And now I can't understand why my mind won't stop torturing me for missing Bucky but then wanting you at the same damn time" I snap "and I feel freaking guilty that I love you, I feel guilty that he left 3 weeks ago and I'm already picturing you naked" I say before massaging my head, Steve is just staring at me in awe "I'm sorry for putting you in this position" Steve whispers

"No you know what?" I ask, Steve frowns "If I'm going to feel guilty than I'm going to feel guilty about this" I say using his own words against him before kissing him roughly, he pulls away and looks into my eyes as if asking if I was sure. I close the gap between us as a reply