Sunday, February 13, 2022, 9:04 PM
Parents say they know everything, Do they know that i overthink literally any aspect of my life? Do they know that ive a mental breakdown everyday? Do they know that I know i'm good for nothing and im okay with it? Do they know that i stopped trying? Do they know that i cry myself to sleep everynight in fear of waking up the next day?
I vented to my friends. Thought i was fine until i start crying for literally nothing. Like a piece of glass that will shatter any moment. Having breakdowns very often. I'm just 13. Why is this happening to me? I want to hate myself but i cant because if i do, I will officially have no one left. Its the loneliness. I can't take it. I have so much planned for my future but I don't know if i even want to live anymore.
I keep saying that im fine but im not. I am dying inside. Rotting to be exact. I can't handle my feelings and im supposed to get it together. I do things to keep myself occupied. I try convincing myself its all going to be over soon. I dont have hopes but i try to be optimistic. Nothing is working and I am a mess all over again.
Dear Lord, Are you even there anymore?
YOU ARE READING
melancholy
Non-Fiction"It hurts and it hurts so bad that it burns so deep down" Sometimes life becomes so painful, you can't go on without falling apart melancholy- noun; a feeling of pensive sadness, typically with no obvious cause. -A place for me to vent out everythi...
