Sin (BoyxBoy) (Ziam)

Warmth

Hello everybody!

I am so sorry for not updating last time! My weekend was incredibly busy, (a little bit my fault for planning so much at the same time) and I hope you can forgive me.

Trigger Warning: This chapter is lighter for the most part, but it does deal briefly with topics/thoughts of suicide, guilt, and a reference to the abuse endeared by both characters. Please read carefully, loves, and know that I am always here.

This chapter will also contain several short flashbacks that are all in italics, so watch out for those. :)

Here is your long-awaited chapter, and the next chapter gets a little... steamy. If you read the original, you know.

Enjoy!

Chapter 67:

"A picnic?" Louis nodded as he held up the blanket and basket.

"Yes. It's romance 101. Haven't you ever seen a movie?"

"I've seen plenty of movies. I just didn't expect you to come up with this. It's hard to imagine you as the romantic in your relationship."

"I'm very romantic, thank you very much," He set down the items in his hand and crossed his arms over his chest. "Besides, you said you wanted something simple but meaningful."

"Right. That's why I planned to go and get breakfast where my mum always took me."

"Okay then, do you have a special spot for a picnic? I know you used to love them when you were little."

He was right about that. I used to always tell him about the times my mum would take me out for small picnics at the park. Louis and his mum even joined us once for our picnic, and it was the most relaxing time. I used to fall asleep in my mum's lap, just enjoying the caress of the sunlight on my skin and watching the water ripple in the pond we sat by.

That was it!

"Yeah. I have the perfect spot," I nodded, seeing Louis smile as I told him about everything I wanted to for the picnic. It had to be absolutely perfect for Liam. It was a part of myself that I was more than willing to share with him.

"So... are you two finally going to do it?" He asked as I finished telling him what needed to be in the basket.

"Louis," I warned, hearing him laugh like the annoyance he was.

"Okay, okay. But, seriously, take your time. If it feels right, then go with it, but don't push anything. Trust me. It just kinda happened naturally with me and Harry, but it was the best decision I ever made. It's about trust and care."

"I trust him more than anything," I admitted, still not wanting to have that conversation with Louis.

"Good. I'm sure he trusts you, too."

And all I remember thinking as Louis left my home was that I really hoped he was right. I really hoped that Liam trusted me.

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I led Liam toward the picnic that I knew was set out near the pond in the park. It was incredibly idiotic, but I grew more and more excited as we neared the pond, as if I was a kid again. I remembered the one time I actually fell into the shallow end of the pond. My mum panicked as I went in the water, but it was shallow enough for me to stand. I wasn't afraid as I fell in. Maybe it was because I never saw any of the birds drown, so I had no concept of what drowning really was.

I looked out at all of the birds that frolicked and surrounded the pond, and I saw them stretching out their wings as if they wanted to take at any minute, knowing that they could, and a pang of envy nestled deep within me.