there is something unhealthy in the way that i feel about you. why after you gave me the smallest attention have i fallen in love with you? i instantly felt safe, even when you unconsentually tried to kiss me. i know it was with good intentions, a misread moment. i'm lulled into a sense of security when you brag about me to your friends. and i feel that you might actually like me. but distance always makes the heart fonder. so when you haven't spoken to me in weeks, i've become uncomfortably obsessed with needing your attention. i cant help to feel that the minute of safety i felt with you has caused my attachment; i never thought i'd feel safe with a boy i didn't know. or let a boy hug me or touch me within an hour of meeting. i will never be able to shake the feeling that my assault has made me believe that i am unworthy of love and the second you made me feel wanted i was too scared you would stop. i want the kind of safety you gave me to last, one where i no longer think of how i've been touched and only think about how it feels to be touched by you.
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the night the stars fell - poetry collection
PoetryPLEASE READ THE CONTENT WARNINGS this poetry collection includes themes and descriptions of: sexual violence/assault/harassment PTSD hallucinations depression anxiety self harm disordered eating in my experience feeling seen through works of writ...
