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sIghing Muse
Feb 07 | 6:21 pm
sIghing Muse:
Would be better if you won't text me for the meantime lol
Yeuno:
Oh, did I do something wrong?
sIghing Muse:
Haha no
They confiscated my phone after I went home. They couldn't take my laptop and iPad since this is where I study most of the time.
So if you have things to say, you could just chat here.
Yeuno:
Are you good?
sIghing Muse:
It's nothing.
Yeuno:
It's not nothing, Iraena.
sIghing Muse:
I don't need to make a big deal out of something that's been happening since I knew how to walk.
Yeuno:
Being in the same spot countless of times doesn't make what you're feeling automatically invalid.
sIghing Muse:
I'm not invalidating my feelings.
I've just grown accustomed to what is happening and I let myself accept the hurtful rocks they threw at me, because I know to myself that I am not what they say I am.
I should define who I am.
Yeuno:
You're being hurted physically?
sIghing Muse:
It's the mentality that hurts.
Let's not dig deeper to that, shall we?
Yeuno:
Okay.
But I'm here. You can lean onto me now. What are friends for, right?
sIghing Muse:
I have a question.
How do I acknowledge you when I don't know where to start being a friend?
Yeuno:
I don't know either.
But I don't think there's a manual to having and acting friends. You just need to wing it?
sIghing Muse:
Do friends actually talk about their feelings? Don't they feel awkward? Like the other person has problems of their own and yet they talk about their feelings?
Yeuno:
Dee and Polly does that all the time.
It might not have been directed to me alone, but I understand why they share their experiences.
You can't expect to isolate yourself and just absorb everything that comes your way. Mapupuno ka.
sIghing Muse:
Isn't this fine? Like you're just going to say words of affirmation and I'd just rethink it out?
Yeuno:
It's up to you.
There are different paths and different ways, only unique to yourself. So do what you want and not what should be acceptable by society.
sIghing Muse:
Thanks
Seriously, you look intimidating and aloof (like me lol) but you're quite different to every person I have encountered.
Yeuno:
Maybe it's because you just found someone who understands?
sIghing Muse:
Yeah...
I think that explains it.
