Message
Iraena
Thurs, Feb 04 | 11:11 pm
It might not be my place to ask,
and I respect your decision to
not agree or disagree.
Continue. I know how
you overthink things xd
Your stories? Your rebellion?
I just figured that you helped
me a lot. And it wouldn't hurt
me if you would ask for help too?
Okay?
It's not like I asked you to
realize I'm the writer you
read to suddenly be my
therapist lmao
No.
Hindi gano'n.
I didn't mean it to sound
like that.
I know, don't worry.
To be frank, I could easily
block and delete you like I
always did with everyone.
And this isn't business
where you need to feel
indebted with everything
that a person does.
But I grew fond of you.
There's something in you
that resonates to me.
Because you were somehow
constant in a way I never
have felt with other people.
I wasn't doing it out of senseless
pity.
I knew the feeling, Iraena.
The feeling of wanting to release
something but you couldn't because
there's nothing or no one to tell to.
I have friends, yes. But I'd always
think no one would understand.
Their perception of this world is
different from mine, I didn't
want to change that.
That's why I liked our talks,
it enlightens me to see differently.
Because I somehow found someone
who could understand.
But I didn't want to think I was
using you when you have problems
of your own, I'm an overthinker
and I didn't know what you
think of me, that scares me.
The idea I couldn't find the end for.
And I'm a pessimist.
I think of a devastating end
before we even start. Because
that's what everyone did to me.
They come and go.
You got me.
You got my attention, Yeuno.
And I'm afraid this is just
something short lived.
I tried avoiding you because
in my mind, there's a "now what?"
begging to be answered.
I was becoming dependent
to this weird friendship we have.
I'm sorry if I'm blunt and I'm
scaring you right now but I
don't wait around for something
that might end anytime soon.
You saw a glimpse of my world
through my stories. Dark,
ominous.
I'm drowning, Yeuno.
But I'm now going to ask you.
Will this friendship move forward?
Maybe? I don't want to
promise anything.
I know, but I don't like wasting time.
It's a yes or no, Yeuno.
Then it's a yes.
I'm liking this too.
