For a long time I'd struggled sleeping
But not tonight
Tropical pearl like tears trickled down my face
As it dried out my skin as well as my acne
And although id been self aware of it my whole life you seem to barely notice it
And my hair
It were a mess
Caught by the tears on my face
And drowning within
I rock my head in my pillow
Screaming
Hoping only I witness my pain
Only I hear my struggles
Only I know your name
And i drift off
With no hesitation Into a deep sleep
A sleep where I only dream of what is to come
But i still feel the distance
I feel it every minute of every second of each day
Hoping one day ill meet you
I wish it were today
And when i wake up
It's a whole other pain
The pain of waking up to what i went to sleep
The pain of you not being with me
Waking up without you
A piece is missing
I wish i could dream forever
I hardly sleep
~H1
