𝐒𝐞𝐜𝐫𝐞𝐭𝐥𝐲 𝐌𝐚𝐫𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐝 || 𝐃.𝐌

Chapter 56

"I miss this..." I uttered, my head was laying on his shoulder and my nose, smelling his cologne that gives me comfort.

"Hmm?" He hummed, moving his head slightly to the left and my hair was already touching his cheek.

"Your hug," I spoke softly and a smile appeared. "I miss it."

-Draco's POV-

We were both laying down on her bed whilst she takes her sleep in the afternoon. She was laying down on my arm whilst my fingers played with the ends of her hair.

We've spent our hours of talking, reminiscing our short shared moments back in Hogwarts.

Although, I haven't told her what I have been meaning to tell her. About Pansy breaking off our relationship. About the task I was given, the task of killing Dumbledore but instead of me, Professor Snape took my stead. I wanted to tell her about everything.

I'm truly glad that we're both on good terms like we used to. I feel much more comfortable and my chest doesn't feel heavy anymore, for she has given me the chance to let me speak to her, lovingly and sincere.

"You're still here?" she spoke, looking up at me and rubbing her eyes.

"Of course, love." I smiled down at her. "I would never leave you."

She smiled back at me and her eyes were locked into mine. This is what I always wanted to see every morning I wake up and she's right beside me.

"I love looking at you like this," I told.

Her eyes gleamed on the afternoon sun, turning them into the colour of hazelnut, and her lips, pink as they are like those pink roses in the goddess' garden.

She lifted her hand up to my cheek, feeling the warmth of her palm and the cold ring that I placed on her ring finger. Our wedding ring.

I placed my hand on hers, squeezing her hand gently and spoke, "You never took the ring off." I smiled.

"I never did."

I love the way she smiled.

"And why do you have this bear here?" I asked, picking up the bear next to her. "I have never seen this before. Who gave it to you?"

"If you're jealous again, then I'm going to inform you that this bear is my childhood plushie and my parents sent it to me on my last birthday." She giggled, snatching the bear from me.

"I'm not jealous." I scoffed.

"Oh really?" she grinned.

I leaned my head closer to her and planted a soft kiss on her lips then rested my forehead on hers.

"I'm not really jealous," I chuckled.

-Y/n's POV-

Evening came and Draco and I are walking down the hallway, heading or way back to our rooms after supper.

Our hands were intertwined with each other and we never let go until we reached our perspective bedrooms.

Then, I felt something, a warm liquid, wash out in what is in between.

No...it can't be...

I let his hand go and rushed myself into my bedroom and ran to the bathroom, slamming the door close.

"Y/n?" I hear Draco knocking on the bathroom. "What's wrong?"

I didn't reply.

I lifted my skirt up quickly and removed my underwear. And there it was, a stain of blood on my underwear.

I'm not pregnant...

I thought I was but...I wasn't. My period just came out late.

"Y/n?" He knocked again.

"Just a moment," I yelled, standing up and taking a clean underwear in the drawer of the sink and also taking a pad.

I brushed the bloodstain off from my underwear and threw them on the laundry basket before washing my hand.

I don't know how would Draco react to this...because I knew that he'll let me go and have my freedom when he hears about this.

My breath began to quiver and my heart pounded fast.

Knowing that I am not with a child, especially when it is his, broke me even though I wasn't ready. I was already happy, but everything just turned upside down. I wished I could've just waited for another hour or many hours and maybe I wouldn't be devastated as this.

I calmed myself down, taking in a deep few breaths before coming out.

"Y/n?" Worry was drawn to his face as he stood up from the couch. "Are you alright?"

"Draco...." I looked at him in the eyes. "I—" I don't want to tell this to him but I need to. "I'm-" I took another deep breath. "I'm not pregnant..."

His face got paler than he usually has. His eyes widened and his lips slightly frowned, turning into a devastated look.

"You're joking, right?" He asked.

I looked down at my fiddling fingers and shook my head as a sign of "no".

"My period came late..." I muttered. "I'm sorry..."

He placed his hand on his forehead whilst his eyes were closed and his other hand was supporting his elbow.

From the way he expressed his feelings, I knew how devastated he was. I knew that he didn't want me to let go.

"Draco, I—"

"No!" He blurted, cutting me off my sentence. "You are not going to divorce me. You'll stay here and I will not let Michael have you." He rasped.

"Why is Michael involved in this again?"

"Because I knew if we divorced, you and he will be together, let alone run away from here." He hissed.

"That's Pathetic," I scoffed, crossing my arms on my chest. "Why do you always have this terrible mindset or terrible imaginations?!"

"Because I knew it would be true."

"But Draco-"

"I believe this conversation should end," His eyes turned cold, not the warmth I was seeking for. "Goodnight, Y/n." Then, he left, leaving me in tears.

He would never believe me. He never does. He never trusted me.

I thought that the moments that we shared earlier was going to go smoothly, but at the end of the day, things took out of turn.

I wanted to tell him that I want to stay with him, but he didn't let me speak my thoughts out. He thought I would be proceeding with the divorce, especially when there's no child inside my womb.

I wish he would listen to me...