"Probably... yeah," She answers softly with a frown on her features.
"Why did you join this club?"
The room felt oddly tensed and intimidatingly quiet that deafened my ears.
"...Because... no clubs will accept me except this..." There was a melancholy tone in her voice and I could feel my heart lit up by the sadness in her features, which she's trying her best to keep a perfect smile.
"...What do you mean?" Part of me had sympathized with her, but really, this isn't me. Normally, I wouldn't care but I could be the worst human being in the universe if I am not moved by a woman's tears.
"I mean, look at me. Who would accept someone as klutzy as me? I'm not a good sport, and I'm not good at anything else," She smiles forcefully.
"There is Calligraphy Club. Your handwriting is pretty," I tell.
"..." Sana remains quiet and she looks at me as if there was something on my face.
"What is it?"
"How did you know that?" She blinks in pure shock.
"Everyone knows that," I remind. Sana realizes and lets out a cute 'oh' with a catchy giggle at the end.
"About that... the girls in the Calligraphy club seem to hate every time the Seniors compliment me. I guess I tried too hard.. They deserve praise too, is all!"
"And... you quit because of that?"
"Hmm... something like that! Haha!" Sana happily puts a hand on her back.
I see. Minatozaki Sana is kind hearted.
She's one of the good kind who treats people equally and she rarely gets mad.
There are always doubts in kindness.
"Forget about me, Y/N. Why don't you tell me about yourself?"
"About yourself," I tease with a dumb reply as she pouts.
"No, not that! What's your interest? Hobby?"
"Erh, I like reading books and doing nothing," I say with uncertainty, but other than that, I'm honest.
At that, Sana thuds her chair when she stands up quickly and spreads her arms up. "It's a book lover's club! You belong there!"
"Oy... they don't just read books, okay? They held drama's, make stories and roleplay and I don't want to take part in that," I grunt.
"Oh, really?" That face of her proves that she didn't know. So, she returns to sit down and ponders smartly. "Hmm... Lazy-Club?"
"That sounds really good," I excitingly bend in her direction.
"I know right~! They don't exist though," Sana lowers her tone with a frozen smile.
Without anything decent to say, I stare and I got the impression that Sana doesn't like it if I stopped talking, or she'd overthink that I'd find her boring. Her desperation to keep the conversation open was only to avoid getting awkward.
"A-Anyways! Wh-what brings you here?! You haven't told me yet!" Sana's voice shakes.
Girl, relax. It's just me. No need to be nervous.
"I'm here to find a club. A club where I'll find myself and experience new things I haven't done. A club where I can escape my reality. A club that changes me. A club that I can call... my home,"
Sana's breathe was stolen away. Everything I've said had her open mouthed and eyes had grown bigger. I could see a reflection of myself when I look at her clear, stunning eyes. It's as if it had a different dimension in there I want to see.
The next thing I knew, her eyes moisture and was left beyond impressed at my words.
"Wow..."
"Huh?"
"I-I never thought I get to hear you say that,"
"Well... I'm surprised too," I look away to hide my embarrassment. As Sana took notice of it, she giggles childishly and grins.
"Okay~! Leave it to me!" Sana stood up from her seat and lightly fists her chest, brimming with confidence.
I smile a little as I thought. Well... I guess this is it. People come and go.
And I'm one of those...
I'm a wind that flies away when I don't feel like I belong to a certain place...
It's not just because I feel it.
But because I know it.
I formed a group of friends before, but I never get along with them.
No matter how much I tried to fit in with my peers... I can never be like them.
I'm different.
I'm not ordinary.
Being an introvert fits me more.
I don't need anybody.
And I'm not someone that's easy to get along with in the first place...
I don't want to fit in. Definitely.
I don't care about anyone, but myself.
I'm a selfish freak.
The world is beautiful, especially without a human in it.
And I'm beautiful.
I love myself. Not that I'm a narcissistic addict, but I know my own worth more than anything else, because no one sees it.
Just then, a loud thud appears from the door and Sana startles in surprise. "Woah!"
"S-Sana... there... you are...!" It was Momo.
"Momoring?! What's gotten into you?" Sana approaches her with a glass of water and she takes it to drink. So nice. I wish she'd give me too.
After drinking, Momo wheezes and breathe in stably until she shakes her head. Momo must've noticed I'm here, but didn't want to pay attention to me.
"Big problem. Miss Bae needs us," She grabs Sana's hand harshly.
"Hey!- What?"
"Let's go, you need to hear this and we can't slow down!" Momo looked scared and I only happen to know that because of her shivering hands on Sana's wrist.
"What's wrong?"
"Our club is going to disband and be replaced with Calligraphy Club!"
"SAY WHAT?!" Sana gasps.
Say, what? Calligraphy Club? How?
"Let's go now! The Calligraphy club members are there too! We can't lose to them! We must not lose this club, Sana!" Momo cries.
I nod a little and move to look at Sana. When I did, I gasps softly.
Sana seems troubled...
Chapter 6
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