Krisyeol; The Immutable Truth

15 ◕ He could be (🇬🇧 vers)

Luna entered Sehun's room and found Sehun fast asleep.  His breathing is regular.
 
She approached him, and furrowed her brows when she now saw a tattered piece of paper that was in Sehun's arms.  She pulled it slowly, intending to take it.
  
She held his breath for five seconds before finally returning to normal.  Luna knows Chanyeol's name, as well as his face in the photo.  A name that Kris has been talking about several times in his sleep.
  

"Are you going to throw it away?"  His voice was hoarse, softly holding back tears and pleading.
    
Luna looked at Sehun who was different from his voice, his face was so flat and his eyes were now staring at him blankly.
     
"Mama, don't throw away the paper," he said. 

"Hunnie feels comfortable sleeping by hugging it" Sehun said honestly.
     

Luna looked at her son then returned the paper to him.  Sehun grabbed it and hugged it.
       
"I'm sorry, Ma..."
        
"Why?"
         
"Hunnie's words must have hurt mama earlier," he said in a low voice.  "I'm sorry, mom..."
         
Luna was crying.  Her tears fell, she lay down beside her little Sehun and hugged him tightly.
           
"Mama is wrong, I'm sorry, " she said, "Mama has failed to be a good mother"
            
"Mama is fine.. it's just that- I regrets my condition that I can't be with papa and mama"
             
Luna rubbed her son's head then kissed his forehead.  She rubbed the back of her son who was lying on his side facing her.
              
"Have you met Chanyeol before?"
               
"No, papa doesn't want to find and meet him" Sehun said slowly, "Have you ever met him?"
                
"Never.  Honestly, I'm curious what Park Chanyeol looks like," said his mother.  "Mama just saw a few pictures" she said honestly.
                 
"But he seems to be a good person," said Luna sincerely.  "His smile looks warm," she said, pointing at Chanyeol's smile at the shabby photo.
                  
"Can hunnie love him?"
                  

Luna looked at her son with raised eyebrows, Sehun smiled faintly.
                    
“Papa smiled very sweetly and warmly.  Even papa's eyes come alive when Hunnie mentions Chanyeol's name, or when papa tells his story with Chanyeol."
                     
Luna chuckled.  Covering her broken heart.  She kissed Sehun's forehead and nodded.  "Of course you can love him.. Hunnie is free to choose who you want to love..."
                     

Sehun looked at Luna then hugged her tightly with his eyes closed.  "I love you, mama.. You are the best mama" he said with a thin smile.
                       
The sentence that made Luna cry silently.  She hugged Sehun back and rubbed his head.
                        
“Sleep well baby boy.. I love you forever”

Kris smoked his second cigarette.  He stood on the balcony of the house near Sehun's room.
 
Sehun's door opened.  Luna looked at Kris who was looking at her.  She walked over to Kris and stood beside him.
  
The night wind blows cold.  Kris went to Sehun's room to take the blanket stock from Sehun's closet, then returned to Luna's side and draped the blanket over the shoulder of the woman who was his wife.
   
“You told about Chanyeol to Hunnie?”
    
"Yes.  That kid is really good at coercing me.”
     
Luna chuckled.  Imagining Kris and Sehun arguing because they are both equally stubborn.
      
"If I could love you everything would be easier, wouldn't it?"
       
Luna looked at Kris.  "I don't even want to imagine it, because the result will still be zero.  No?"
        
"Don't say the word 'if' that easy, Kris," said Luna trying to remind.
         
"Why?"
          
Luna looked at Kris and let out a long breath.  “Instead of thinking if only you could love me.  Why don't you use the word if to think about it?”
          

Kris looked at Luna who was now patting his shoulder.  "What if he's there, looking up at the same sky as you, admiring the same stars as you, missing you, and expecting you to come see him and say you love him and then propose to him and live with him?"
            
Kris furrowed his brows.  "That's only if" said Kris in his cold voice -again-.  Luna sighed.
             
"There's every possibility in the word If, Wu Yifan," She said as she turned around.  "I borrowed one of your rooms" she said then left.
              
"You're okay saying that?"
               
Luna turned and smiled faintly when her eyes met Kris'.
                
"Kris, you didn't even turn around when I was crying begging you to love me"
                 
"Then?"
                  
"I won't do anything like that again.  I'm an adult.  I know how to love you in silence.  And my pain?  It's not something you need to think about." She said and walked away.
                   
“About Sehun—” he added, “He never met Chanyeol.  He didn't know what Chanyeol was like.  But with him saying that name, you shine again, Kris”
                
   

"Maybe Sehun is the thread that will bring you two back together"