Can't Unlove Her

Chapter 16

Jema's

"Anong nangyayari sayo, sez?" hindi ako makaimik kay Kyla habang nandito kami sa kwarto niya.

Nakaupo lang ako sa kama niya habang nakatingin sa kawalan.

"What was that?" I don't know how to answer her actually.

Hindi ko nga alam kung bakit ganun ang naging reaction ko kanina.

"I thought it is already clear to the two of us that we would never mention your bestfriend."

Napapikit ako sa salitang "bestfriend"

"Ky, I have no other bestfriend besides you." I didn't look at her but I can see her sharp gaze from my peripheral vision.

"You know yourself that it was never the two of us."

"No, It is just the two of--"

"It was the two of you before I came in the picture. Sez, magkaibigan tayo pero mas may tiwala ka sa kaniya. We're three in our so called bestfriend relationship since then but you were always reaching out only to her. Kung hindi nawala si Deanna, wala tayong ganitong pinagsamahan because if only Deanna is here, we wouldn't be this open with each other." This time, tinignan ko na siya.

There's something in her eyes that tells how unfair I am to her.

It's true that we're friends since then but not that close because I was with Deanna all the time. Magkakaibigan kaming tatlo pero mas komportable at palagay ang loob ko kay Deanna.

Mas gusto ko siyang kasama kesa kay Kyla. Doble yung saya ko pag naririnig ko ang boses niya at hindi ko gusto ang ideyang hindi makikita si Deanna sa isang buong araw.

How unfair to Kyla na kelanman ay hindi ko hinanap ng kagaya ng paghahanap ko kay Deanna.

It doesn't matter if Kyla can't attend my birthday but if it's Deanna, I'll be really upset with her.

It was always Deanna before Kyla.

We're three in the picture but only I adore Deanna.

"Naiintindihan mo ba ako, sez? Hindi lang tayo dalawa kanina. Nandoon ang mga kaibigan ng bodyguard mo. They didn't even know who's Deanna in your life, especially when Deanna is your bodyguard's name as well."

It's all true.

Hindi man lang ako makapag-react dahil wala namang mali sa sinasabi niya.

"Alam mo ba kung gaano ka naging magulo kanina?"

It started from the movie.

Sana hindi ko na lang tinanong ang bodyguard ko.

Lalo lang kasing gumulo.

Hindi ko alam kung bakit masyado akong apektado.

It's not like only Deanna I knew back then had the right to like Batman.

Kahit pa noong nagpakilala siya bilang bodyguard ko, gusto kong magulat dahil sa pangalan niya pero I acted tough and unbothered dahil alam kong nakikita ng Dad ko ang reaction ko.

Ayokong isipin niya na apektado pa din ako sa pangalang yun na matagal ko naman ng kinalimutan.

Sinadya ko ding ibahin ang name na binanggit ko kay Kyla ng ipakilala ko siya sa kaniya. Good thing, na nagets naman ako ni Kyla sa ginawa ko at sinakyan na lang ang kalokohan ko.