TAEHYUNG'S POV
When I woke up this morning I had a really bad hangover. My head hurt like a bitch and I swear any form of sound made my head ache. I tried to sit up and walk towards the stairs. I carefully climbed down on the flight of steps and when I got down I quickly lied down on the couch putting my arm over my eyes. Aish... I really can't go to school today. My head hurts too much.
Should I go to school or not? Maybe not.
If I'm not going to school then I'd better make breakfast for them first. I walked to the kitchen slowly and got some pancake mix to cook. After making the mix, I got a pan and a spatula out. When the pan was hot enough, I got a ladle and poured the mix on the pan. After finishing all the mix and cooking the pancakes, I placed the plate in the middle of the table and set out some place mats, plates and utensils.
After setting the table up, I went up the staircase bearing with the migraine I was having. I met Hoseok along the way and just told him I wasn't going to school today because I was having a migraine also telling him that I already made breakfast. He just nodded and bade me to take care of myself.
As I got to my bed, I laid down on my bed again and put my arm over my eyes, drifting to sleep.
JEONGGUK'S POV
Upon waking up, my body ached again. Aigoo...
I saw YoonGi beside me still sleeping and I was still in his arms. I got out of his grip and tried to walk the pain off. Its like every night we slept in the same bed, because everyday we practically do it. And I got used to it already so I'm not as sore as the ordinary, but it does cut back my stamina.
I grabbed my clothes and went inside the bathroom to shower. After showering, I came out nice and tidy and also YoonGi was awake. I shot him another glare and just smirked at me. Really, what was his problem?
I really hate this. Why do I even sleep with someone I hate. Well, to counter that I don't actually hate him and I've established that the first night we did it.
But why do I have yo be his slave? I mean he just uses me and I know that. He doesn't love me. And it annoys me to hell that I actually do like him. I swear he is a jerk and can't go a week without doing it. Seriously, he can't.
I made some breakfast for the two of us while he took a shower. After he took a shower, we ate breakfast quietly as always.
I never really got to know him because all it was to him was sex, sex, sex.
As like every other day, we didn't really talk to each other too. He'd just come to me when he was in need.
I actually wish I'd gotten to know him better and I wish out situation was not just like this. Just master and slave. I just want to be in a normal relationship like any other teen.
But then, even this wasn't the kind of relationship, having a relationship with him wasn't normal to any other's eyes.
TAEHYUNG'S POV
Ahh.... Seriously it was so boring here, but then the more I tried to move my migraine grew. Practically, I've slept the whole day and just moved when it was time to eat or something. Yuni texted me awhile ago, but I didn't reply. I was still pissed at her when she congratulated me.
I mean I can see it was my fault and I really regret what I've done. Really. Then she goes congratulating me and it just really pissed me off I swear.
I shouldn't act like this, but I'm gonna come clean. I wouldn't be this pissed if I didn't like Jimin enough than I already think. I would be happy that my mission is accomplished, I would still feel guilty, but not this guilty. I think I've gotten past the whole crying myself to sleep thing because I think no more tears will be shed, but that's what I think, wait until later night, all if my tears will be pouring once again.
I'm desperate here. How will I make Jimin forgive me? How will I make him like me again----- no scratch that, he loved me. I doubt that he'll be able to forgive me nor love me back again. I so regret everything I did. I wish I never did this. I wish I never agreed to this stupid deal of my sister's maybe I could've still saved my sanity and I would never have cried this much in my entire life. I never would be this broken.
And remembering, I don't remember what happened last night. Really. I just remembered I went drinking with Hoseok then that's it. Should I ask him what happened?
Aish... I don't know.
That day he saved me from those guys beating me up, I was so happy to see him beside me. I just had a little hope for things to work out. I wish it does.
Eventually, you'll get tired of me yapping about my life, how I feel, how broken I am and how I cry myself to sleep, but that's how my life is. I just can't stop yapping about it because that's how I feel. I don't care if I repeat it more than I-don't-how-many times, but that's just it. I don't know how to go on about my life anymore. All I could think is about how broken I am and how much more broken Jimin is, because I can finally realize that I love him every each moment I think about our situation right now.
There I finally admitted it to myself. The only problem is how I'm going to admit it to Jimin, hoping he'd forgive me and accept me again.
I feel like that sounds so selfish, but I just hope it comes true.
Well, thinking about this just makes me really sad and I wanna cry again. See, just awhile ago I said I wouldn't cry anymore, but I felt a tear roll down on my cheek again. Just thinking about how I feel, how I hurt Jimin, how I cry myself to sleep, and all that shit just makes me cry more and more even though it has been on loop since we broke up.
I really hate this, I sound like a crybaby now. Me, Kim Taehyung, wasn't really one to express his own feelings to other people and even to himself and now I've made it a point that I'm already an emotional wreck.
Really, why couldn't I just admit m feelings to Jimin and just stop crying? I'm so tired of repeating this to myself. I'll just shut up now and silently cry myself to sleep.
JIMIN'S POV
I wonder how Taehyung is now with his migraine...
I really wish he wouldn't do anything stupid while he's alone. Based on Hoseok, he's caught Taehyung multiple times in the act of cutting. I don't want to find him in the bathroom floor lying unconscious in a huge pile of blood because that would seriously give me a heart attack. I cringed at the thought. No, that's the worst thought ever.
Wait... Why am I even thinking of this? Of course, Taehyung won't die! Don't jinx it Jimin. I will never forgive myself if that ever happened to him.
Unfortunately, I have basketball practice today. Of all days, really? But then I couldn't skip this time because I skipped the last five practices without any valid reason and apparently coach will have me kicked out so I at least have to attend practice at least 2 days a week.
I really wanted to go home, but I guess I can't.
HOSEOK'S POV
Jimin and I were supposed to walk back to the dorms together, but then he had practice today. Along the way were just discussing things about what would happen to our plan.
When I got home, everything was quiet, except I could gear soft sobbing upstairs. He was crying again, I thought.
I went up quickly and saw Taehyung lying down and choking back soft sobs again. He was crying himself to sleep again. I dropped my bag on the floor and crawled over to his bed and hugged him, he faced my chest and sobbed on my clothes resulting it to be damp.
"I-i... Miss.... J-jimin... Hoseok.... I-i l-love him...." He admitted. I mean he admitted that he likes Jimin, but he was drunk that time, now he was sober. This was the first time he admitted that, he'd normally just cry then just drift to sleep, but now he really admitted it.
After about 5-10 minutes (how can someone even cry for that long? Seriously.), he has calmed down and drifted off to sleep.
While he slept, I thought about it. Should Jimjn take him back now that we know he really truly loves him back, in sober words?
I thought about that until Jimin got back home.
We were gonna have a talk.
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Hiya!!! An update yesssss! Okay yes I know 'geez author-nim this is such cliche crap!' Well I'm sorry for that cliché, like really, that was the most corniest chapter I have written all about feelings and shit, but hey Taehyung admitted it out loud and was sober too! But really... Ugh, still not contented... But I hope the next chapter I'd write would be better than this. Ugh.... Please leave comments because that would help very much! Thanks for reading! See y'all soon!
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