Natasha Romanoff OneShots

no where to run (2) - NR

part 2

warnings: sh, depression, suicide attempt
word count: 2.3k

Several days passed and Nat ignored me like I never existed. She stopped making me breakfast in the morning and even made Yelena drive me to school. Peter was still out to get me, but he had limited it to snide comments and subtle kicks under the table, so he wasn't caught. Not that anyone would believe me anymore.

I'd never felt so isolated before. The days seemed to drag and my arms became scattered with silver lines. I no longer felt like I belonged anywhere. I was completely numb, only coming out of my room to go to school. I didn't talk to anyone, I barely ate anything and in meetings I was barely listening. It had gotten to the point where I didn't see any point of living. There was nothing for me here. My own mom hates me, my brother is committed to making my life a living hell, and I just felt stuck in a vicious cycle.

I tried to end it, but never got close enough. The several failed attempts just made me sink deeper into the depression. I stopped going to school, only leaving my room to attend S.H.I.E.L.D meetings upon Fury's request.

Which brings us to now. I was sat on a leather chair in the meeting room with the other Level 6 agents. Fury was stood at the front delivering another training presentation and everyone was busy taking notes. But I just stared at the table in front of me, my notebook empty and my pen lay untouched beside it. This meeting had been going on for what felt like forever, but realistically it had only been an hour and a half. My mind was empty, but I still couldn't bring myself to listen. I didn't even realise that everyone had left until I felt a hand placed on my shoulder. I shot up, seeing Fury seated next to me with a concerned expression and I froze in place.

"Take a seat Romanoff. We need to have a chat." I flinched as he said my old last name, and Fury being Fury, he noticed. "What's going on with you? You're one of my best agents, I thought you'd be promoted to Level 7 soon, but you've been distant lately. I'm not stupid kid, you're the youngest agent I've ever had in Level 6, but I expected nothing less coming from your mother. So what's going on?" It felt weird having someone asking how I am, and the fact that it was Fury made it even weirder.

"I'm ok. Just tired." I replied, wanting nothing more than to leave the meeting room.

"Y/N. I'm the director of an organisation that trains spies and agents. Don't think I can't read you, because I can. Now tell me what's going on."

"It's nothing, I promise. I've just not been sleeping the best that's all."

"Then why did you flinch when I said your mothers last name? I know you changed it Y/N. JARVIS alerted me. So why don't you explain why?"

"Because she doesn't talk to me. She barely even acknowledges that I'm around. It was all fine until she adopted Peter. Since then she's just forgotten all about me and I can't take it anymore. Peter makes my life hell but no one believes me when I tell them. I don't know how much I can take of it Nick. I don't want to do this anymore." I was crying by the end of that, pouring my heart out to my boss.

"JARVIS, can you pull up any camera footage of Y/N and Peter from the past 6 months please."

"Certainly Sir. Should I include audio too?"

"Yes"

"Retrieving files now"

"Nick what are you doing?" I was totally lost with what was going on.

"JARVIS records footage in each room for safety reasons. No one has access apart from Stark and I. This will prove if Peter was hurting you or not."

My mouth dropped open. This could be all I need to make Nat believe me and get rid of Peter for good. The huge presentation screen flickered and a playback of the day when Peter wrecked my room suddenly showed up. The picture was clear and his voice rang out. My body immediately went tense and I felt my hands start to shake. My chest felt tight as I could see his hand wrapped around my throat. My mind instantly felt the fear that wracked my body in that moment, but I didn't want to show it in front of Fury. I watched his face as the video played. It stayed emotionless the whole time and as the video ended he turned back to face me. Before he could even speak, I immediately started talking.