INCUBUS KING *Editing*

-TIRED OF RUNNING-

I had no break when it came to working out and practicing. He didn't seem to care that I was supposed to be resting for these next two days. He had me do some intense workouts. Too intense, to the point where I could barely walk home. It was as if he sort of just wanted me to be at my best. I guess he didn't want slack, he wanted to make sure that I was sharp and ready for any type of attacks being sent. I was very trusting of the spiritually ritual and ceremony I've done and will do. It doesn't matter how different it is. Somehow and some way it all just matters to me, my reading makes sense and my head had felt a lot more relief from last night. I know that the demons or whatever those things were are gone for a while. I know that at some point someone is gonna come around and they won't be too far behind.

I walk out of the barn, leaving him there. I was honestly done for the day and that's my way of saying it. I could feel him trailing not far behind. "Hey, where do you think.." before he could even spit out the question l cut him of.. " I just had an intense ebo done last night, I need rest. The last thing I need is this. This is practically muscle memory to me at this point. So it's not necessary for me to be training this hard for the next 4 days." I said to him and turn to continue walking.  He was right under my ass. I sigh to myself, this is what I'll have to get used to yet again. I've got another man up my ass, his whole things is to be a captain save a hoe. I roll my eyes and walk to my room. Shutting the door before he could even get in. I need time alone. I also needed to shower. I hate the fact that it just seems like I have to be with Lazarus. Every man that comes into the picture always seems to emotionally unavailable. I sigh.
I walk into the bathroom and take off my clothes. I turn on the shower, shifting the setting to a warm on. I step in not long after. I grab my rag and soap.
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The next day I took it upon myself to find a small little house right outside the city. What I'll do is rent it for about two months. I know that I don't really have a long time. This man was going to find me. I would be on Lestat finding me more so that Lazarus. His new push has him on lock, it would take a hardcore miracle to break that spell. I sigh to myself and select two homes. I knew that I would probably end up running from one place to the other. I just have to make sure this man who I will calling my godfather doesn't know.

I sigh to myself and watch the rain drop onto the window sill. I was too tired to even do anything crazy. I just wanted to be on this internet and sleep. Which is how I'll spend the majority of my day. I kind of have everyone a warning and asked them nicely to just knock and leave the food on the small table across from the door outside of this room. I had a wonderful smoothie bowl, filled with fresh fruits. For lunch they gave me a hearty salad filled with cut up leafy vegetables and some accent veggies and olive oil. It also had this unique vinaigrette that was bussin.
For dinner I had a Berber Tagine with meant and Vegitables. It was cooked really well, I'm a picky eater. But these wonderful women have managed to find a spot in my heart and stomach.
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Today is the day of my initiation. I was the only one being initiated. Which made me feel a bit nervous. I would end up experiencing a lot on my own. I couldn't help but feel as if the silence of my current situation is a storm waiting to hit. It almost feels like the moment before a tsunami. How all of the water disappears and then after a bit of time the huge wave hits. I feel like after the initiation I'll end up having to fight all of these demons.

It makes me wonder how they will show back and up and if it will be with their rightful owner. I just wanted to put an end to this little battle once and for all. If I have to be the only one to fight them then so be it. I have no time to sit and let some man snap out of his enchanted love spell to save his rightful mate. What sucks is that this handsome man whom I've been training with for the past few days hasn't made it any easier on me. So not only can't I have my mate but I can't even step to him in any type of intimate manner. Only as a god daughter, I sighed rolling my eyes.

That only leaves me to be with Lestat, I don't want that. I don't hate Lestat or have anything against him. It's just that I can see that if I get with him, I won't be able to leave his grasp. He will mark me and marry my on the spot and never look back. I guess that's a good thing, but what man would want his friend's left overs? It just makes me feels as thought I've been used and it's best for me to just find a regular little human boy to suit my basic needs. But my god mother's and single godfather wouldn't allow it. I know deep down that something is gonna happen in the next four days. I just know that after I get initiated I'll have some kind of big test to go through or a trap that's being set for me. I shook my head. If I fail it I will dip and never ever allow anyone to find me again. If I have to run, I'll do that. But honestly I'm tired of running.