JenLisa : Escaping Us

Escaping Us

LISA's POV:

Sabi sa statistics. Nine out of ten na umamin sa crush nila ay nagustuhan din nang gusto nila. Sobrang malas mo na lang kung sa ten na yun, ikaw ang nag-iisang hindi na'crush back.

Masyado akong naniwala sa fact na yun na naging motto ko na nga din.

"What?? Mahal mo ako?" sigaw ni Jennie ng sinubukan kong umamin sa kanya two years ago. Saka nya inayos ang pagkakaupo nya sa sofa at tumingin sa akin.

"Bakit? Masama ba? Hindi ba pwede Unnie?"

"Well, I know love has no gender kahit sino pwedeng magmahal. Minsan nga kahit poste pwede nang pakasalan." then she laughed.

"So pwede? You can love me back?" I was so desperate to have her. Na kahit 90-10 chance lang ay gagawin ko. Okay na to. kapag semplang edi pwede ko namang bawiin na joke lang ang lahat.

"I can love you Lisa. But not in an intimate way. I love you as my little sister, as my member and as my super naughty little brother who always steals kisses from me." saka nya kinurot ang ilong ko.

Aray. Hindi naman masakit. Para rin namang binusted nya ako in a cute way. Tss.

"But I want more than that Jennie-unnie!" maktol ko.

"Haha. Seriously? Ni hindi mo nga matanggal ang unnie everytime you speak my name." saka sya tumawa nang malakas.

"I love you Jennie. I love you so damn much. Please don't make me repeat myself.” This time I tried to sound more serious.

"Seryoso ka ba talaga?"

"Do I look like I'm joking?"

"I'm sorry Lili, I can't. I didn't even know what love is. Hindi ko alam kung kaya kong suklian ang pagmamahal na ibibigay mo. All I have in mind is my career and the future ahead of us. Love?? It will just destroy us. It will destroy you. So stop before you fall too hard."

"This is the last time I'm gonna ask you Jennie. Can't you love me back??"

She immediately moved her body closer  and pressed her forehead to mine. Then I felt her warm breath all over my face. The sudden rush of excitement made me close my eyes.

"Haha. See?? You're not even brave enough to open your eyes while I'm this close. What more in front of the public? Can you keep up the hype Lisa? Are you willing to risk it all?"

Saka sya lumayo sa akin. Is she teasing me?

"Love is saying goodbye to your sweetest dreams and saying hello to your worst nightmare." dagdag pa nya.

"What do you mean? Ang harsh naman nang definition ng love sayo unnie."

"Love is just an option. Siguro I can say I truly love someone if I run out of options and end up choosing to fall harder for that person. Wala na akong ibang choice kundi mahalin sya. Kasi yun na lang ang gusto kong gawin. Aside sa paghinga. Sinasabi ko to sayo kasi kahit ako hindi ko maimagine ang sarili kong makakahanap nang taong magiging option ko." saka sya ngumiti ng napakaganda. Those gummy smile that never fails to tickle my heart.

"Let me be that option Jennie. Let me change your mind. I love you."

"I love you?? I can't just say those words Lisa. You know me I can't say things that I didn'tn't mean. Ayokong makasakit. I'll only say those words to the only option that will take my breath away."