Despicable Men - The Cassanova King

TCK - SPECIAL CHAPTER

WARNING: VIOLENCE, SUICIDE. SKIP NIYO NA LANG KUNG HINDI NIYO TRIP

JACOB'S POV

I destroyed everything I saw in my unit

TV, laptop, tables, chairs... Everything

Still, it's not enough! I want more!

My heart is shattered

Im really hurting... Really bad.

I... I just want to die.

"AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!" I shouted as loud as I could so can't feel any pain even for a second but it failed

It did not even lessen the pain

My body is full of blood... My blood from my wounds but my heart is more painful than these wounds.

I wish I could put some bandage on it para mabasawan man lang ang sakit

Hindi ko inexpect na aabot kami sa ganito

I just wanted him to be happy pero bakit sobra sobra akong nasasaktan ngayon.

Then my door opened

Doon pumasok ang taong ayaw kong makita ngayon

"Oh my God! What happened to you son? What are you doing?!" Sigaw niya at naghihisterical na pumunta sakin para tulungan ako pero isang malakas na tulak ang ginawa ko sa kanya

"Don't touch me"

Napasadlak siya sa sahig. Alam kong masama ang bagsak niya pero wala akong pakialam

Her pain doesnt even match pain that I'm feeling right now

I stand up and get a bottle of beer

I need to be drown in alcohol to lessen the pain

"Anak! Ano bang nangyayari sayo? Bakit ka ba nagkakaganyan? My God! It's just a fag! You can get any girl you wan..."

"SHUT UP! SHUT UP!! SHUT THE F*CK UP!" I shout and throw the bottle on the floor

Nabigla siya sa ginawa ko

"It's all your fault! It's all your f*cking fault" Umiiyak kong saad
"K-Kung hindi ka nakialam sa relasyon namin. He should have been with me right now. Saturn should have never fell out of love from me. We are happy now pero Putang*na mo! Dahil sa baluktot mong paniniwala, nawala buhay ko. Saturn left me."

I hurt Saturn before because of her

She blackmailed me that she will get everything away from me at papahirapan niya si Saturn if hindi ko siya hiniwalayan

I broke up with him and that is one of the stupidest mistake I have ever done in my life. Nagpanggap pa akong nagcheat!

Hell! Cheating on him didnt even cross on my mind.

I did my best to have a good life without any support from my mother

Nagsikap ako para balikan si Saturn

I did. I did get him back

But it was different from before

He changed.

He's not looking the same way as he looked at me before

His eyes dont express love for me at all.

But still, I want to keep him. I want him to stay by my side

Pero alam ko, nahihirapan rin siya. He was torn between us.

He's always sad even though he smiles a lot.