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Illegal (13) Goodbye Mom ✓

Illegal (13) Goodbye Mom

"~ Lalalalalalalala ~"

I really can't imagine what Kirk told me last night.

Maybe it's just a dream or just an illusion? He loves me?

Tsk. What are you, Cassy? Are you still going to steal him from your own mother?!

Wait.

Since last night, I haven't seen mommy after what happened.

What is she doing now? Is she still crying?

And who wants to ruin their relationship?

Maybe, someone who likes Kirk or mommy. It's impossible for mommy, so maybe for Kirk.

I put on my slippers and went to the bathroom.

I just washed and left the room. No business today on Sunday.

Whoaaa! I have time to bond with mommy later.

I went straight to mommy's room with smiles on my lips.

I'll just forget what happened last night. I haven't gotten too close to Kirk so it doesn't hurt a bit.

But for mommy? Maybe, it really hurts.

"Good Morning--- MOMMY?!"

"Doc, bring mommy back to life. Please?!"

"We will try our best, miss Balenciaga."

The doctor closed the curtain and I just sat on the floor.

Why?! Why is this happening now?!

When I opened mommy's door earlier, I saw her... hanging from the ceiling.

Is she really that affected by their separation? That she'll commit suicide?

What about my feelings?! She didn't think about the people around her... she just thought about herself.

I hugged my knees and just cried and cried.

I don't seem to be able to live alone yet. Thinking that I'll live alone, I think I'm going to die.

"C-cassy..."

I turned to the man who called my name and saw him. Kirk.

"WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE?! THE COURAGE TO COME HERE! MOMMY WON'T HANG UP HERSELF IF YOU DIDN'T CAME IN OUR LIFE!"

I slapped Kirk's chest but he didn't stop me.

I just stopped slapping him when I felt tired.

He suddenly hugged me tightly at the same time mommy's doctor came out.

"D-doc, d-did you recovered her?"

I approached the doctor while Kirk held my shoulder.

I lost hope when the doctor suddenly shook his head and spoke,

"I'm sorry to say this Miss Balenciaga, but your mom is gone."

"Nooo!"

I suddenly cried so hard that almost everyone in the hospital turned their gaze to me.

"Fuck! What are you looking at?"

Suddenly they averted their eyes and I sat down in a chair.

What am I going to do now?

My relatives is living far away. Almost everyone is in the States. How about me?

I don't have a father anymore.

Daddy is gone, as well as mommy?

"Cassy... calm down-"

"Bitch! Calm down your face! Mommy won't die if she didn't met you. Hahaha. Why did you hitted her up? What?! Lust?! You want sugar mommy?! Whoa! Gold digger! Jerk!"

"Cassy..."

Kirk seems to be holding back because he is holding his temple.

"WHAT? ARE YOU GETTING ANGRY?"

"No Cassy... I'm sorry. I didn't mean to-"

"What can your sorry do, huh? Will that make my mother alive again? It's not, right?"

I prayed to the Lord earlier but why did He still take mommy from me.

Am I in debt with Him? I've been good daughter, right?

I left Kirk in the hallway and walked away.

I went to the park and there I cried and cried.

The children look at me and pointed me.

Fuck it! What is their problem?!

The wind blows my hair so it went messy.

I stood up and started walking again.

It's nice to flashback to my mind. It's nice to go back to the past.

I hope I can be a child again so that I don't have to deal with pain. There is no ignorance.

I just found myself in front of daddy's grave.

"D-dad..."

Suddenly my tears flowed. They are no longer here with me.

I wiped daddy's tombstone with my hand.

"I'm here again..."

I laughed a little and wiped away my tears.

It's like I've only been here twice.

"D-daddy... W-why now? I hope you give me a sign that mommy will also disappear... not all of a sudden, daddy."

I lay down next to daddy's tombstone and looked up at the sky.

It looks like that I did all of this before.

It's like a deja vu.

"Dad, take care of me, please? Don't leave me."

I smiled and faced daddy's tombstone.

Patrick Balenciaga.

But because of them, I am not here in the world today.

Hayss.

"D-dad, I will miss you two. Always remember that I love you..."

I wiped my tears with a handkerchief and laid again on daddy's tombstone.

"Dad, you gave me this handkerchief, right? I'm giving it back to you dad. Hahaha."

I lay down again and I saw someone looking at me.

"Sandy... Hush now! I'm here. I won't leave you."

"S-sceven..."