My Beautiful Karma✔(Zach James Lee)

Chapter 6. Drunk

Chapter 6. Drunk

Dahniea's Pov

I was walking back and fort on my room here at my condo as I remember the thing that happened to me last night. Hindi ko alam, but d*mn, I regret drinking to much. I've lost control and we did that thing. Lasing man ako pero alam ko 'yong nangyari and right now, I was so nervous. What am I going to do?

Itatago ko ba o sasabihin. How about my career then? I'm not safe on that night and there's a big posibility that I will get pregnant pero umaasa akong huwag muna. Sana hindi muna. I was hoping that it won't be a reason for losing my career right now.

Am I overthinking like what the hell!! It just happened once!! Siguro hindi naman diba. I smiled bitterly as I shooked my head, remembering what happened on that night.

Flashback.....

"Stop drinking"

"No!! I need this" mayabang kong saad sa lalaking kasama ko na ngayon ko lang napagtantong, siya pala iyong sinasabi ni Czarina na playboy 'kunno' na vocalist.

Who is this freaking crap that keeps on bothering me for the things that I wan't to do?!! I don't even know him!! Kanina ay akala ko ihahatid niya lang ako dito pero mula no'ng nakarating kami dito sa club ay hindi na niya ako iniwan. What's wrong with this guy?!

Nagpakawala ako ng malalim na buntong-hininga bago ulit nilagok ang ang alak na nasa baso. Hindi ko nga rin alam kung bakit ito ang naisipan kong gawin matapos akong palayasin ni dad sa bahay.

D*mn!! Only child ako but it seems like they don't wan't to have one kaya nagawa nila akong palayasin. Hanggang ngayon hindi ko iyon malimutan. I shouldn't be here on here on the first place. Dapat ay nagsasaya ako ngayon kasama ang mga bandmates ko dahil successful and concert namin. I am the one who composed the song and yet, it seems like it's all not worth it.

How can I be happy right now despite of my successfulnes when my family can't even congratulate me on that thing. Gusto nila sila yo'ng masunod ang pangarap pero pa'no naman 'yong gusto ko? Itatapon ko na lang? May kasabihan na kung saan ka sasaya, doon ka pero may kapalit ang lahat eh and that is being away from my parents.

I'm not mad. I'm still hoping that one day, babalik din sila sa dati. 'Yong dati kung saan mas pinipili nilang sundin ang bagay kung saan ako masaya hindi 'yong pipilitin nila akong gustuhin 'yong isang bagay masunod lamang ang gusto nila.

It's unfair but d*mn, alam kong meron din akong mali. Pareho kaming may mali at sana balang araw, handa na akong harapan silang muli.

"Stop that. Ihahatid na kita" I heared him say ulit pero gaya ng dati kong tugon, umiling lamang ako at pinagpatuloy ang pag-inom.

Minsan nga ay napapatulala pa ako sa kawalan. May mali ako pero ano nga ba iyon? Bakit hindi ko alam kung ano ba ang bagay na iyon?

If only I could turn back the time, then maybe I can do both pero sana hilingin din nilang sana ay maibalik nila ang panahon para sabay naming piliin ang tamang gagawin at sasabihin.

I smiled bitterly as my tears began to escape from my eyes. Iba pa rin talaga kapag ang problema ay tungkol sa pamilya. Mas mabigat iyon pero kinakaya ko. Hindi lang isa o dalawang beses na pinilit ako sa hindi ko gusto. I've lost count but d*mn, I love my parents despite of what they've done to me.