Love Taken Chances

Chapter 28

Pinunasan ko ang mga luha sa mata at mukha ko. Alam ko halata pa rin na kakatapos palang umiyak. Hindi na kayang itago. Binaba ko ang salamin ng sasakyan. Bumaba ang ulo niya at pinantay sa sasakyan ko.

"Fuck! You're crying?" Nakatingin lang ako sa kaniya. Kala ko hindi na tutulo ang luha ko. But the moment I heard his voice asking me hindi ko na naman napigilan ang luha ko at kusang tumulo.

" Fuck Bella! Stop crying. You made my knee go weak right now."

"You know what? When I saw my cousin crying over you I didn't mind. I just shrugged off my shoulder and told myself that it's okay. You'll be with Caden anyway. I love Caden more than my cousin. He's like a brother to me. Seeing him madly in love with you, we were  happy. He's never been serious with women. Only to you."

"Seeing Caden crying over you I cried too.  Even if I don't know the feeling. I never been in love or love someone like he does. But I know how much it hurts. I don't know if I have the right to get mad at you knowing that you're hurting too. Seeing you a while ago watching his house from a far somehow hurt me. Kaya pumayag ako ng sabihin ni Zeus na sundan mo kami. I want you to see him. How are you feeling right now?

I heard him asked me that question. I'm still crying. Hindi ko alam paano iexplain ang nararamdaman ko.

"I just wanted to see him for the last time." nasabi ko na lang.

"Kung nasasaktan kayo parehas may paraan naman na pwede kayong maging masaya." Umiling ako.

" Walang ibang paraan mas masasaktan siya at may ibang taong madadamay." Pinahid ko ang mga luha ko.

" Thank you sa inyo. I know you are all his  family at kampante akong aalis dahil alam ko andiyan kayo. And thank you for this chance Kai. I really appreciate it." Tumango siya sa akin at ngumiti.

" Una na ako ha. Please look after him."
Itinaas ko na ang salamin. Nandoon pa din si Kai nakatingin sa akin. Umalis ako sa lugar na yon na mabigat ang pakiramdam.

Days passed and everything is ready. I was endorsed to one of the best Cancer Institute  in Isle of Man. It is a state in Europe part in between Ireland and United Kingdom.

It is famous for rolling hills. It's a nice place for healing. Kung ihahalintulad siya sa Pinas ito ay parang Batanes, mas maganda pa. It's has a parliament type of gov't.

The day I will leave the country was a day before Caden's wedding. Minsan ayoko ko na lang isipin kasi masasaktan lang ako and it's not good for me. Hindi ko alam saan ang kasal nito. Wala akong idea. Hindi kasi ako nanunuod ng mga balita or mahilig mag scroll sa news feeds ng mga social media. I am busy with other things para pag aksayahan ng oras ang kakakalikot sa phone ko.

Pero minsan di ko maiwasan na maisip kong kumusta na kaya ito. Okay ba ito at hindi na inaatake ng nightmares niya.

Hindi rin ako nagpaalam sa mga kaibigan ko. Ayoko ng umiyak at magpaliwanag. Napapagod na din kasi ako. Alam ko magtatampo silang lahat. Kay Kim lang ako nagpaalam since siya muna bahala sa business ko. From time to time mag aupdate pa rin ako sa mga items ko online though ginawa ko na silang admin sa page at groups.

I arrived at Isle of Man in the afternoon at napagod ako. The next day is my appointment in the Hospital At Town Castle Care Institute. A cancer hospital situated in Isle of Man.

When I arrived on the Isle of Man I found a rugged beauty and a vibrantly green land dotted with ancient castles, towers and stone circles.

I was so amazed of the place. Gusto ko sana iexplore muna. This is my first time here in this small island.

I have someone with me in the house her name is Nania. A middle age woman. She will do the house hold chores for me. My brother in law hired her. Wala akong car but I have a small bicycle with cart in front. The hospital is near as well as grocery store and supermarket.