I'm back at it so I hope everybody enjoy 👌
If you know any good stories I could read comment and let me know.
I've read almost every story in my library so somebody comment suggestions or whatever thanks so much 😁
-Chanell 💛
Que.
I haven't been the man I should be and now it's tearing me apart I'm not this person.
I've been drinking the past two weekends to rid myself of all the bullshit I've been doing I know I'm wrong and I admit it.
How could I hurt the love of my life especially now with her carrying my child.
I gotta get myself together and quick my life is no longer mine I have another life to focus on from this day forward.
Prom is three days away and I gotta get my last minute things like shoes and shit.
I haven't really seen juliana except for school and she's been giving me the cold shoulder I guess she's noticed my distance from everything.
-----------------
"Look imma tell you this shit right now I can't do this shit no more foreal this shit has to stop" I said to shayla who was standing In front of my house
"How many times you gon do this jacquees you don't love her " she said putting her hand in my face
"I've made my share of mistakes I admit that but one things for sure I love juliana with all my heart I just let myself get caught up in this bullshit I'm not doing it no more" I said walking up the driveway with my hands on my head
"I gotta find a way to tell her that's if she don't already know" I said looking back at shayla "you gotta go I'm cutting all ties I have to you" I said before walking back on the porch and into the house.
Damn how am I about to do this I gotta do something and it can't be like all the other times this one has to be different.
------------------
Juliana.
"This pizza so damn good" I said smiling at april and the girls
"Right I told you yo stubborn ass didn't wanna believe me" bri said
"Damn I can't believe prom is only 3 days away well really two I hope I can still fit into my dress" I said grabbing another slice
"You will you not that big" gigi said
"I kinda regret this whole pregnancy now well not my baby but the father" I said as I sighed
"What happened?" April said confused
"Que was with shayla two weekends ago and she showed everybody at school pictures and shit" bri said grabbing her glass
"What the hell is wrong with his little ass imma kill him" april said getting up "juju imma kill him"
"Be my guest sweetheart I've had it up to here with his bullshit" I said going to the refrigerator
My phone then rang I went back to the table to grab it and answering it immediately without even looking.
"Hello" I said in a irritated tone
"Hey ju how you feeling?"
"I got heartburn what you want?"
"O-oh u-umm I would really like to see you and talk I got some things I need to get off my chest and I - I u-uhh can I just take you out tomorrow?"
"Yeah I guess whatever"
"Okay well I'll be to pick up at 1 I love you juliana"
"Of course you do"
After hanging up the phone I sat at the table before finally going to my room.
The girls were already upstairs watching tv I just layed down and started to think
Is this really what I want?
------------------
Juliana.
The next morning I woke up and I just laid there I had a thousand things on my mind. It was already 11:30 so I had to hurry and get dressed.
I took a twenty minute shower then got out grabbed my boy shorts and put them on my bra my leggings and tank top.
After all that I put my hair up in a messy bun and went to brush my teeth.
I put on my earrings and necklace and then my light blue jacket with my blue and white converse.
I layed back in bed and just watched tv until he came. Not even twenty minutes later he called to tell me he was outside.
----------------
Que.
As I sat in the car I just kept on thinking how I was gon fix this one I knew she was bout sick of my shit.
I seen her walk out the house and my heart starting beating faster than ever.
She was starting show more which I thought was the cutest thing she was glowing and beautiful as always.
I got out and went around to open the door for her. As I helped her in I got lost in her scent she smelled amazing and looked incredible.
I had no idea where i was going to take her it's a must that I talk to her though.
--------------------
Juliana.
The car ride was partially silent jacquees did most of the talking and I was barely listening to any of it.
We pulled up to Buffalo Wild Wings and a smile crept onto my face. We got out went inside and were seated immediately. After we sat he just stared at me for what seemed like the longest time.
"Juliana" he said as he continued to stare
"Everytime you start off like that it means you bout to say some bullshit so spare me the bullshit spare me the lies spare me please jacquees" I said with a blank stare before looking away I didn't want him to see the hurt in my eyes and I really didn't wanna get worked up
"I know you passed pissed at me and I deserve every bit of it I've hurt you in the worst way possible and I feel so bad for betraying yo trust like this I was only thinking about myself not you and the baby like I should have been I need to be a better man" he said as he showed nothing but heartbreak and remorse on his face and I ain't gon lie I was hurt but I couldn't show it
"Jacquees I love you I do and you need to get it together fast because if this continues you will not have me or yo baby I can not keep doing this with you"
"You right and I know what I have to do to change it"
We ordered and continued to talk and I couldn't help but to smile and laugh he's my weakness I just hope I'm doing the right thing by giving him another chance.
