Glitching to Fix Time {Poor Execution, Rewrite occurring in diff book}

Ch 12: The Truth of Clarity pt 2

"She said it a couple minutes ago, actually." Claritys replied with a half shrug sniffling lightly as she looked up at her again.

"She was here!?" Sara demanded standing up, wondering how she could have gotten past her without her noticing. Sara got up walking over to the window but it was locked from the inside and the layer of dust on the sill made it clear no one had opened it in a long long time. That was perplexing, she hadn't passed her on the stairs and she would have noticed the devilish blonde for sure, the stairs were the only way up, but not Sara's main concern at the moment. She turned back to Clarity. "Are-are you okay? Did she hurt you?"

"Yeah," Clarity rocked a bit not that the motion had soothed her any. "I mean no," She rubbed her hands up and down her legs. "All she did was pin me, she just wanted to talk, voice her condolences...give me that." Clarity nodded to the journal.

"Why would you even read it if she gave it to you?" Sara asked sitting down in front of her. "You said she tormented you from like grade school to high school. That's like taking candy that'll drug you from a known serial killer."

"I was curious. I didn't believe her. At first I thought it was forged but it's real. Not sure how she got it but she did. She's good at getting what she wants you know. I guess this is her way of getting revenge. She knew I couldn't resist." Clarity shook her head as she said the final word she knew, deep down, Delancy was just getting started. She was going to keep digging, get through all the bureau tape one way or another. She'd discover she had powers. Put the pieces together about what happened to her mom. Delancy was insanely smart, smarter than she was, Clarity knew. She'd tell her dad. Then she'd lose him for sure. Clarity felt like throwing up. No, she couldn't let that news come from Delancy. She-she had to minimize the damage somehow. If there was any microscopic chance of not losing her Dad because of what she'd done she had to tell him, before Delancy did. She couldn't let it be like highschool...this secret was so much worse than being gay, well Pan, but she hadn't really known what that was in high-school. She had to tell her Dad about her powers, ruin her life herself, just like she'd done for her mom, because somehow Delancy ruining it was so much worse.

"Revenge?" Sara wondered. What did this Delancy person have such a miserable or even such an absence of a life that her only past time was tormenting Clarity?

"For Tyler's death. She was his fiancée too apparently. I really shouldn't be surprised, at this point, there's always something." Clarity ran her hands through her hair. "It's just like there's this avalanche I set off in that barn with my powers y'know, and snows heavy, weighing me down ever since, burying me, piling over me, every time I try to claw myself out from underneath it, find some kind of warmth to melt myself out, get past it, another layer just comes along and buries me again before I have any time to recover. It's just going to suffocate me. Delancy wants to make sure it does. It's all because of these stupid powers. No matter how I look at it they're not just the problem they're the cause. Every single time cause I'm not good enough with them. No matter how hard I train, how much I try, I'm never gonna be to a point where i'm not a danger. I'm just so tired, I don't know how much more loss I can take."

"Clarity," Sara squeezed her hands gently, gaining Clarity's gaze. "Don't...I'm not going anywhere, Pachirisu. Talking with you, comforting you, being there for you, whatever you need, I don't mind doing any of that at all. I'll help you train if that's what you need. You're always there for everyone else, but Clarity I don't know why you make it so hard for other people to help you. Especially lately. It kills me hearing you talk about yourself like-like your not worth knowing or that you aren't good enough when you're the most amazing person I have ever met."

"Me?" Clarity asked as she blinked, doing her best to halt her tears. Sara never liked seeing her cry, Clarity knew. Clarity was surprised she even had any left after all that life had been throwing at her. But the thought of her mom not wanting her, of losing her Dad once she told him about her powers, even Sara calling her amazing, was enough to get the waterworks going again. "No. Don't think so."