A slice on my arm
My wrist
That's all I need
One slice
Three
I can't stop
Won't stop
Until this all disappears
No one knows how I feel
Not even those I call my best friends
They can't see past my stupid smiley faces and my masks
I never realized how easy it was to lie in a text
Put some fake happiness into my words
And instantly it appears I'm fine
They can't see otherwise
They can't see the tears flowing out of my eyes
They can't see my arms bleeding blood
They can't see anything at all
And maybe I shouldn't care
As I smile in my texts
And feel absolutely alone
Because if I tell you what I'm feeling
You will go
So five cuts
Eight
Nineteen
Who cares
No one would notice anyways
Not even those I hold dear
Oops my hand slips
And I cut a little too deep
And the cut just continues to bleed
As a deep red pours out of my wrist
I smile
Just like those stupid faces from my messages
Ha well at least I wasn't lying in the end
I say goodbye
And you think I mean goodnight
But what you don't understand is that tomorrow you'll receive no good morning text
Hell, tomorrow I'll be fucking dead
So "Byes"
I tell you all
And I love you
Though in the end
I hold my arm over the tub
And bandage it with a sigh
Not brave enough to end my life
One day though
One day soon
I won't have enough energy to put a bandage on it
And I'll quit
And you'll be texting a ghost
Though to be honest,
I was a ghost
long before I ever killed myself.
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Isabelle's Poetry Journal (a continuation of Homesick Angel)
PoetryMy name is Isabelle I am 15 years old (not my real age.) I am a "Homesick Angel" at least that's what I'm told I am called the people like me are called the people who are depressed suicidal empty numb those people they're just trying to go home T...