Hogwarts one shots

Blaise Zabini

Idea: Reader struggles with depression and feels like they can't take it anymore,Blaise is their boyfriend (TW SUICIDE ATTEMPT) if you feel this way please reach out for help, you are not alone

Y/N:

Everyday just feels the same, like the days are loop that will never end, never get better, no matter what.

It feels as if I can't break the cycle like I'm caged in by my own mind and I won't ever find the key.

I'm not sure if anyone has noticed, no one really cares though so I wouldn't be surprised if they didn't. No one tried to ask if I was okay but if they tried I'd always give the same answer 'I'm fine'.

They always beleived it, always.

No one questioned me after that, the only person who seemed to notice anything was Blaise.

I would see his worried looks and pretend I hadn't, I could tell when he was just trying to be by me like he knew something was coming.

If he did think that then I guess I couldn't blame him. He was right.

I've made up my mind, I can't be stuck in this loop anymore.

I can't stay on autopilot, I can't do anything besides this its my only option anymore.

I had already thought it over, I'd written my notes to anyone who may have cared. I'd left some of my favorite things to Blaise if he wanted to remember me.

Not that he would.

I honestly doubted he would miss me, I love him I know I do. He tells me he loves me but now my mind feels as if it can't except that.

Like I'm not worthy of such an amazing persons love.

Tonight, I would say goodbye to my friends and Blaise today. The numb would be gone by tonight. The thoughts that plauged my mind would stop. My breathing would cease and I would finally leave this place.

Speaking of Blaise...

"Lovely!" I felt arms wrap gently around my waist and a small kiss placed on my cheek.

"Hey"

That was all I could manage, I knew he didn't know, at least not yet but just because I wanted to go didn't make it easier.

"You alright?"

"I'm fine"

I hated lying to him and I knew he could tell when I did but I continued it. Its been like this for a while now.

"I think...I think I'm gonna walk you to your classes today"

His voice was shaky as he spoke, uncertain. It was unlike him, he was always so confident that it was strange hearing the almost worry in his voice.

I looked up at him, searching his face for any hint that could tell me what he was feeling.

His eys stared back me as if he was also trying to decifer what I was thinking. Good luck with that. I can't even tell whats going on up there.

His hand slowly came up to cup my cheek before pulling me closer and placing a gentle kiss on my head.

"I love you y/n, so much" he mumbled into my hair.

"I love you too" it was true, I did. Way more than he knew, I knew he was the one for me but I also knew that he probably didn't think the same as me and that hurt as well.

Students began to flood the hallways and Blaise pulled me closer, an arm wrapped around my shoulders and held tightly into his side. Like he was afraid I would vanish if he let go. I guess thats somewhat accurate.