once again,
i have to say,
never in my life,
never once did i think,i would fall for this crazy
motherfucker,he trapped me,
controlled me,
used me,what he wants
and
onlycause that's what narcissists
doyou aren't normal,
getting married at 20you claim to not give a fuck about
anythingeven your own life,
fuck,
you don't even have your life together yet,how can you go from being
christian grey
to being
prince charles?you haven't experienced love yet
because all you did was
fuck
sex is what you cravedyou didn't want to fall in love,
you just wanted your eyes to roll backyou think you're in love
i know more about love
more than you dolike fuck,
you look dumb as fuckfor a whole damn year,
you said"i don't want a girlfriend"
"i like my freedom"
"i don't like being with someone"so of course,
i respected thatlike,
teach what you preach
motherfuckeryou know what you did,
not just to me,
but to other girlsi feel bad for them
my heart breaks,
and i feel themit would make sense for me to get married,
cause i know what
love isi've been in
relationshipsi've had things with guys
all you did was go
bedroom
to
bedroomi look at you as
crazyi look at you as the
narcissist i was gonna loveeverything is always about you
if it doesn't go your way,
you freak out,you just love telling me and
other peoplewhat do to,
you aren't shitso don't get gassed,
thinking marriage when you don't know what love is,
or even have your life togetheris right and cool?
i'm laughing at you,
i hope you figure out what
"forever"
iscause clearly
i don't think you dohow can you go from fucking everyday
to
no sex?haha,
the man who i was gonna love,
who made me feel good,
who was probably gonna be the next man who i claimed to lovefailed.
and maybe,
that's for the goodi guess i'll never know the truth,
cause i hear different stories,and maybe that's for the better,
let's see how this plays out,
but for now,
goodbye
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