The New Girl

Chapter 10: Confronting the Issue

“Mija, I need for you to talk to me here, otherwise I’m never gonna know why you were a complete mess when the security guard found you.” Mom was focused on the road ahead, but I could feel her words hit me as if she had a spotlight on me. All I did was stare out that window, watching the trees and houses pass by in a blur.

Security found me about 30 minutes later after the bell rang. By that point, I was still a complete mess. My eyes were burning from all the crying, and my body shook more than it ever before. I was completely broken.

I was brought into the office where the principal was asking me what was wrong and what happened. He wasn’t harsh about it thankfully, but he was speaking with a sense of authority over the situation. His constant questions about me hit me hard and made my emotional state worse, even though it was a completely normal question.

I wouldn’t tell them what happened. I physically couldn’t. Everytime I tried to even think about what I was gonna say, another wave of sudden sobs and pain came out instead. The only thing I was able to tell the principal was “I wanna go home…” and nothing else. After a minute, he figured that I was too emotionally unstable right now that I couldn’t be here. He called Mom up, told her about what happened and now i’m here, sitting next to my very concerned Mom.

“Luz, please talk to me. I want to know what happened. Why are you crying right now?”  Her pleas to get an answer was intensifying as we drove down the road, and it slowly got to me.

"....I really don't want to talk about it…" I barely whispered that, but Mom heard it and I could sense the quick glare she gave as she stopped at a light.

"You don't want to talk about it? Luz. I just came all the way to get you because of this! I need to know what happened, please!" She was getting frustrated with me, and it hurt.

I choked up another sob, as I gripped my bag tightly against my chest. My body still shook like crazy, i could hear the pencils in my bag moving around, that's how bad it was.

"....it's just like RVA again…." 

"What was that-" Mom was asking to repeat that, but at that point I went ballistic with my emotions.

"RVA MOM! MY OLD SCHOOL, IT'S JUST LIKE RVA ALL OVER AGAIN!" My breath was very shaky, as I continued to rant. "I JUST LOST AMITY! AMITY DOESN'T LIKE ME AS A FRIEND! IN FACT SHE THINKS I'M A WEIRDO AND A CREEP! SHE WAS TALKING SHIT BEHIND MY BACK!" I began to sob much harder than how I was already.

"She-she hates me Mami. She was never my friend…" I clutched my eyes shut as I held my bag tighter, sobbing quietly now.

"Oh mija…" She went quiet momentarily, before I felt a hand on my shoulder. "I'm so sorry that happened to you….I'm sure you just misunderstood it-"

"Don't even say that." I gripped my bag tighter as a sudden surge of anger washed over me. "I heard it with my two ears, she said all of this crap about me. She hates me…." I tried to wipe my eyes from the tears, but it was pointless, as more tears immediately filled my eyes afterwards.

I noticed the car turn off the road, and slowly ride along the side before coming to a complete stop. I looked at Mom, and she closed her eyes and took a sigh. At first I was scared that I pissed her off, and I was about to get more shit thrown at me.