Fortress Island Series 1 Alejandro: Love Just Ain't Enough (BOOK TWO)

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"I'm scared Ale...so please, go slow." Sa nanginginig na boses na sambit ko.

Alejandro looked at me with puzzled eyes. He seemed unsure if he really did hear me correctly. I can't blame him. I am even unsure of myself. I don't want to appear weak in front of him. I don't want to be under his control but there are things in the world that you just can't explain. Katulad na lamang ngayon. I have this grudge against him. He hurt me in the past, he broke and shattered me, but I just can't understand why I am allowing him to treat me this way. Why I am slowly opening the door so he can he get into my life again.

Siguro nga ay nababaliw na ako. Dahil kahit anong taboy ko sa kanya, kahit ano pang iwas ang gawin ko, I can't stop thinking about him. I can't stop fantasizing him. I can't stop worrying about him. I can't stop dreaming of him...of his touch...of his kisses.

I realized just now that Alejandro has never left me. I just hid him in the darkest corner of my heart and pretended that he doesn't exist anymore.

There's a constant war of want and denial inside me every time he's near around my orbit. But I want to end this pretention, at least for now. Even just once, I want to be real to my true feelings. I want to stop being hypocrite and listen to my heart's want instead.

Alejandro cupped my face with his trembled hand. "Are you sure about this, baby?" He asked softly.

My heart was thumping crazily against my ribs. I gazed at him. I could see the promise of love and sincerity in his eyes but at the same time, I could see sadness in there. Or is it my own sadness reflecting back at me?

Lumunok ako. "I'm...I'm sure." Am I?

Alejandro leaned forward and kissed me on the forehead. Hinapit niya ako at binuhat ulit. Malalaki ang mga hakbang nito pabalik sa kanyang silid. He slowly laid me on the bed.

His hand went to my back and masterfully unsnapped the hook of my bra. Tuluyan niya itong tinanggal at hinagis kung saan. A guttural sound vibrated in his throat as he looked at my chest. Nagliliyab ang mga mata nito na pakiwari ko ay matutupok ako anumang oras. I raised my arms to cover them, but Alejandro promptly stopped me from doing so.

"Don't, Bea. They're beautiful and so are you."

Kumagat-labi na lamang ako at hinayaang tuluyang kumalat ang init sa buo kong katawan. He then paid attention to the boxers I barrowed from him and slowly pulled them down. I was totally naked right now since I washed my panties when I took a quick shower.

Alejandro hovered above me as he settled himself between my legs.

I looked at the other direction while his eyes raked down on me. I just can't look at him. He's making me hotter than I already am.

"Eyes on me, Beverly Ann." He commanded.

Agad na napatingin ako sa kanya. Bilang ko lang sa daliri kung ilang beses niya akong tinawag gamit ang buo kong pangalan. At kapag tinawag niya ako ng ganun, it's either he's mad or he's not fooling around.

"There are my beautiful eyes." He spoke tenderly.

"Alejandro."

"Baby." He said in a hoarse whisper as he nuzzled my neck and licked me there. Napapikit ako. He's being sweet and gentle to me, kabaligtaran ng kanyang pagiging tyrant.

Red flag was flashing at the back of my mind. I shouldn't trust him, but my heart wanted to. I wanted him so bad.

I will probably regret this tomorrow, but right now, I just let myself fall into his power. Fall hard and fast, even if there's no landing in sight.