What?!? I've Seen You Before!

Thinking Part 17

His eyes are hypnotic and mesmerizing. They'll catch me off-guard whenever they flash inside my mind. I've never thought of someone like this. I haven't ask Chuuya-san about them, but I will soon. This isn't normal, I know.

Can you answer my questions?

Atsushi

Dazai-san? Who were they to you? That guy was Chuuya Nakahara, a Port Mafia executive. I know that Akutagawa is obsessed with you, but for what reason? I have questions. I want answers from you. They seem to be important. When I saw Nakahara-san eye's, they were sad, angry, and in pain. What did you do?

What have you done to them that made them like this? You have a past that I don't question. Now, I wonder who you were. Destiny, fate, or whatever bought us here. I was meant to be here, this disaster, you have created, I will help fix it. I'm here, I'm here...

This man is on my mind. He's a killer of many for Dazai's approval. I thought liked Lucy, she's a bit mean and pretty, but not to me. I never looked at women before. I'm not normal and will never be normal. 

Back at the orphanage, some boy tried to kiss me and blame it on me. I was punished, but I didn't hate it. The idea of some attractive guy kissing me. But everyone called me disgusting, even he did, even if he didn't say it aloud.

I'm scared of who I am. 

I hate myself. I hate myself. I hate myself...

Just how everyone was thinking. I didn't really feel like writing much these weeks but expect good things in the next part two weeks later. (847 words) ✨Thanks for Reading✨Photos not mine.