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it's gotten harder to eat again.
i repeatedly find myself sitting at the dinner table, chewing for mass amounts of time
not swallowing
sitting for hours trying to distract from the fact that i want to hurl
i'm laying in bed alone
exhausted
for days at a time without an ounce of motivation in my body
arms legs aching
my shower is constantly calling my name
screaming for myself to take care
i'm so lost again
the reoccurring idea of relapsing
i cant start again i just stopped
i promised i would stop
i cant stop
im alone
again
-relapse
