I know. 261 isn't even close to being over, but I really wanted to talk about this.
While I was watching @jacksepticeye livestream for different charities advocating for the black lives matter movement, I received a lot of comfort today. ☺️💜 In the stream, there was a part where he talked about no matter what race, sexual background, or religion you identify with, you are always welcome here (in the community). And as a Bisexual believer of God, hearing those words gave me so much comfort. ☺️💜
I know a lot of people I really care about accepted me for who I am a long time ago, but I didn't really feel comfortable with my views. In fact, in college, I genuinely hated myself, especially when I became a leader in a Christian Organization.
It was hard, especially when I'd come out to close friends, I'd hear, "It's wrong, but I still love you." It hurt, and it took me a bit to get over, but I still love them a lot. ☺️💜
But the words that really got me were, "I can help you heal." Those words are the most painful words I've ever heard, regarding my sexuality because I didn't see myself as being sick. Sure, I hated myself because at the time, when I heard the words, "It's wrong, but I still love you" constantly, it was hard not to believe them. But those words, the words someone that I considered family said. . .they broke me for years.
So yeah. When I moved to Virginia, and my bro-in-law and my oldest sister accepted my faith and my sexuality, it helped me heal from the trauma of those words. And then, what really helped me love myself for being a Bisexual believer of God, was when my dad also accepted me and told me, "I can like who I like. It won't change my love for you."
So yeah! Here I am. After 11 years of knowing my sexuality, I have finally embraced myself and am finally proud to say that I am both a believer of God and am part of the LGBT community. ☺️💜 Happy Pride Month, everyone! 💜💜💜
With that, I hope you guys will have a good rest of your day! I love you guys, and hope you love or will come to love yourselves, too ☺️💜
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