Saved by a Killer (Ticci Toby romance)

Part 53

We walk home, but Jane leaves. She says goodbye to both of us and I thank her. Without Jane I wouldn't have found Toby. We get home as soon as possible because I was walking fast. Toby's wounds need to be treated.

"Almost home." I say. I feel as if he would pass out from even moving. I feel like he's a rose and if I make any harsh movement he will fall apart. I'm just concerned. He nods.

Finally we approach my house. My mom still isn't home, thank god. She's coming tomorrow sadly. I open the door and we're in. I sit Toby on the couch.

"I'll be right back, stay here." I say, then go into the kitchen. I look through the cabinets. I find some medicine and a first aide kit. There ya go! I walk back into the living room. Toby took off his shirt which revealed a dark purple mark under his rib cage. I widen my eyes. I let out a small gasp and sigh loudly. I feel like this is my fault. I don't know why but I just feel as if this was my fault. I sit down besides him and start to open the first aide kit. I avoid eye contact with him. I can't bare to see the wounds that they have impaled on his face!

But I know I'll have to look.  Okay, for the lip he just needs a wet cloth so it will stop bleeding. "I'll be right back." I get up.

I come back. "Kat, I'm okay." I just shush him and tell him I'm doing this no matter what. I apply the cloth onto the wounded area. He flinches but I calm him down.

"Hold it there for a minute." I tell him and he obeys. Then I take it back and apply antiseptic lotion to it. He looks at me sadly.

"What's wrong?" I ask.

"Don't be so upset by this, you didn't do anything wrong." He says. What can he read my mind? The fuck?

"How did you know?"

"I know you, kitty Kat." He smiles. I wanna cry, but I refuse to let the tears come out so I just settle for a small smile.

"I'm gonna get you some ice."

He needs ice for his chest and his eye. I take out two ice packs then give them to him. He looks at me, troubled.

"What?"

"Can you hold the other one?q" He offers it but its by his chest. I take it and hold it against his chest. I feel so bad, why?

Maybe its because you almost killed Clockwork and Jeff, so they were trying to get at you by hurting Toby.

My worst fear came to me. That's why I feel so god damn guilty. Why is everything my fault? Why do I screw everything up? What is wrong with me?

"Kat, I'm fine."

"I just can't help to feel...responsible." I sigh. He takes my chin. 

"You didn't do anything, this is not your fault." He says. I just nod, put on a mask so he knows that I'm fine...I'm fine.

"Come're" he motions me into his arms. I gently try to get in. He's a rose remember... Don't be harsh or he will fall apart.

I start to cry. Ugh, why?! I cover my face and tears eventually escape and fall down my cheeks. Toby just holds me tighter not saying anything. I feel bad! I feel...awful. I'm scared though. What if they try this again? What if I don't make it on time?

"Shh...it will be alright." He whispers and kisses my temple. I don't say anything, I don't feel alright.

Then I realize that Toby is the one injured, not me! Damn I'm so stupid! I get out of his grasp, then reach for his hand. "You need some rest." I tell him then stand up.