Poetry by Ynab

Goodbye

This is how it ends.

the bitter news falls in as my heart rends

i must say i never realized

that you were the one who stayed.

it was never really over

you were a terible lover.

adored my body more than my everything

and now you got me nothing.

I never really cry.

and if i do, i will shed but a tear.

i lived in constant fear

the end was near

the moment nigh

but i couldn't let him go

held in high

regard

but i let it die he said,

i hid him hither and never bothered.

It was never meant to work

that much is clear.

Its clear why i have been depressed all this time

he is the reason why

love is a game

and i love to hate the players.

So this is goodbye

i am sunk in too hard

you never did lie

its a good thing, but you're bad.

i can never give you what you desire

i can never let you near me again.

i don't have an armour

i don't have a shield.

i am not a warrior

but my heart will not yield.

So goodbye

i am gone.

gone

gone

finally walking away with my emotions

i am not good at sharing them.

i will tell you this Sunday though

you never knew how to keep me

you couldn't even do it to save your life.

i am still sad that i actually believed you'd change

that is woman for "i love you even though you are disgusting"

because it shows that i have a good heart

it might not be strong but good is a good start.

and you may hate me for the many times i came back to give

false hope,

but now i leave,

leting you have what you really want

so happens to not be me.

my heart is too cut up to understand

but at least it is still beats

and someday someone special will come into my life

and he will make all my dreams come true

while you do whatever you want

with whoever you want

whenever you want

you are just like my exes

they all cheat on me

because they all hurt me

and my heart just cant take it anymore.

i can't make head or tail of my emotions

but i will be alright.

because i am Zainab

and i am bigger

and stronger

and i am Zainab.

i'll be okay.

thank you for letting me go.

i am not coming back

i am never coming back

so help me God.