I was 18 when i met you
first day in my twice last year in school
you stared at me and blushed when you wrote my name
coz you couldn't get it right
I hoped and prayed that you were just naturally shy
even though i knew you probably weren't...
One month later you acted like you never knew me
i was so angry when you blatantly ignored me.
I hadn't remembered you were shy
so i wrote you off as an "ignorant, irritating and arrogant man"
You watched me months later
trying to fall asleep on a hot afternoon in the bus.
i didn't like how you kept pressing your chest on me
since you and your cronies thought i was kind of a waste of space.
You apologized with those searching eyes i hated so much
and i got up and walked out on you.
Real mature i guess
Whenever you saw me walk into physics class
your friends would eye me
it scared me a whole lot
coz i had never liked attention
But for some reason I wanted yours
Albeit half-heartedly.
Later that year you got to know me better,
When we went on a school trip and you loved my figure hidden so well
And you loved how I smiled and laughed
And I remember thinking as we sat outside the office waiting for our caution money
About how I would probably not see you in a while after we parted that afternoon.
And it was a bit true because we didn't
But I was well on my way down the path of love to you.
I remember when we first agreed to be together
But I ran out because it was too quiet,
The second time because you were too intense
And the third time because there was someone else
And for close to six years we played that dangerous game
Where we weren't quite lovers, nor just best friends.
But something in between which we didn't understand.
Every moment together was filled with a mix of emotions
Dangerous like a loaded gun pointed at a deer caught in the headlights
And then we were scrambling to be together,
To make memories,
Your lips against mine,
Your hands leading to new places and your eyes
Dilated like you were on a drug...
Then you were gone
And we were gone
And it was all over.
You hit me up a while back
After I had called you a liar, a cheat and exposed you
After my red hot blood was cool from the passion of anger
And you said we needed to meet up
That I wasn't over you
That we weren't in the clear
But I was so over it
So over the lies and baiting and time wasting
And I told you I never wanted to see you In this lifetime or the next
Was your kiss poison?
Was our love the star-crossed kind?
Or was it unrequited?
I always thought the middle, but I found out It was the latter
And boy were you sorry you got caught up in your lies
By the girl you thought you could lie to for 6 years
I still love you,
But the passion is gone.
This love is the kind you enjoy watching from afar
Coming too close would result in nothing but chaos.
Maybe someday I'll love again...
But for now...
For now I'm content with making friends
That and nothing more.
VOUS LISEZ
Poetry by Ynab
Roman d'amourPoetry by Ynab ♡♥♡♥·♥♡♥·♥♡·♡·♡♥·♥♡♥·♥♡♥♡ Hi, I am Ynabeesa. Ynab to be exact. I have always loved writing, and poetry... well, its an extension of my music and what i write. I know that most people do not like poetry. However, here is something easy...