[Two months later]
Being in New York became depressing.
University was too tiring. I was working way too hard for this shit.
I didn't have time for myself.
I was studying all night.
I barely talked to people. I didn't have a social life anymore.
I left home early and came back home late. It felt like it was always the night.
I didn't smile anymore. Everything became boring and grey. Nothing was making me smile or laugh.
I just felt like my life was pointless, and constantly the same.
I was kind of trapped in my own life.
I didn't even talk to the boys. Cause I didn't feel like it.
I didn't feel like talking to people, I didn't feel like doing anything.
I still talked to my boyfriend, but I didn't tell him how bad I was feeling.
And I mean, I didn't want to tell him. When I was feeling like that, I didn't want to talk about it.
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I sat on my bed and rubbed my eyes.
I looked at the mirror in front of me.
I looked ridiculous.
I looked like I hadn't slept in days.
Maybe cause I hadn't.
My hair was a mess. I had dark circles around my eyes. Basically, I looked like shit.
I laid on my bed and sighed.
My phone vibrated. I looked at it.
vin: why don't you answer my texts
me: I'm sorry
vin: what's wrong
me: nothing, I just didn't watch my phone
vin: are you sure about that? you don't text me or the guys anymore. there's obviously something wrong
me: everything is fine, okay?
I just didn't want to tell him, cause I didn't want him to worry about that.
vin: stop lying. I know there's something wrong
vin: tell me
me: vinny stop. I'm fine. stop worrying
vin: you're obviously NOT FINE. tell me what's wrong for fuck's sake
me: I'm fine god stop being so insisting. leave me alone
vin: fuck you I'm just trying to help you
vin: if you don't wanna tell me then just fuck off
vin: stop talking to me if you can't trust me, okay?
I sighed and put my phone down on my bed.
Tears came out of my eyes. I didn't even control it.
I guess I was too tired of everything and it was the thing that made it all come out.
I didn't want to fight with him.
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