14 - ғᴜᴄᴋɪɴɢ ʟᴏsᴛ

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I jumped on my bed and buried my head into my pillow. I screamed in it.

I didn't know what to do. I was so stupid, honestly.

The guy I liked kissed me, and I fucking ditched him.

I KISSED HIM !

AND LEFT HIM !

I was so angry towards myself.

In this type of situations, I called Ryan. But I mean, Ryan would get over excited if I told him I kissed Vinny.

I really didn't know what to do...

I could talk to my brother, but he wouldn't take it seriously.

Oh. I could text my best friend Jaime. I didn't see her often besides the fact that we were on the same school, but she was always here when I needed her and I was always here when she needed me.

I grabbed my phone and started texting her.

me: hi jaime, I kinda need you right now

I sent the text and put my phone on the nightstand.

I started asking myself too many questions. Why did he kiss me ? Why did I kiss back, break the kiss, and leave without a word ? God damn it, I was so stupid.

[Ryan's point of view]

My fingers were burning but I was about to win. I had been playing video games with my sister for the past two hours, and I kept beating her ass.

I won !

-Fuck you Ryan ! Bet you're cheating.

-Don't be mad if I'm too strong for you, I said putting down my controller.

-Bla-bla-bla. Take it, it vibrated, she said handing me my phone.

-Thanks, I said taking it.

I unlocked it and saw a message from Vinny.

vinny: man I need you, I fucked up really bad
me: what ?
vinny: I'm fucking stupid
me: what happened
me: is that about y/n
vinny: yeah
vinny: I kissed her
vinny: I'm so stupid
vinny: she left
me: you WHAT????
vinny: yeah. guess she got scared.. I thought we were on the same wavelength
vinny: I'm so stupid I fucked up really bad I want to punch myself
me: you like her?
vinny: I think so
vinny: I mean
vinny: yes I do
me: AWWLSNDKDDN MAN
vinny: what? help me ryan
me: dude
me: I've been knowing you like her but
me: I mean this was obvious
me: you don't look at a girl the way you look at her if you don't like her
me: but dude
me: don't feel bad
vinny: ? I have reasons to feel bad
me: I promise you, don't feel bad
me: I'm not the one who should tell you it so I'm not gonna say anything
me: but don't feel bad.
vinny: alright but.. what should I do
me: I honestly don't fucking know
me: I'm not a love guru but I know my best friend so
me: don't text her, she's gonna get scared
me: you should wait until tomorrow
me: and you should wait for her to say something
vinny: ...alright. thank you ryan
me: :)

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