'You have a health appointment today then Sky's photo shoot on Thursday.' Hayeon Unnie informed.
'Alright. You can just drop me off here and have a day-off. I'll be fine myself. Please do not inform any of them that it's today, especially Joshua. If they ask, just tell them that I have a meeting with Sky. Thank you!' I smiled before going down the van.
I actually feel nervous and scared. I hate the smell of the hospital, especially at times when I felt like I was going to die from the gunshot at the previous accident that I had. I want him to be here with me but at the same time, I don't want to see him here, worried and being affected when he sees the results.
I walked towards the reception and registered for my appointment.
'Hey, I'm here to register for my health check-up.' I smiled at the nurse.
After I was brought into the doctor's office, I explained my condition and was brought to run multiple tests like testing my blood and doing a CT scan.
'You will get your results after two days. Thank you for coming. You may go now, Miss Kim.' The doctor smiled before the nurse brought me out.
I walked out of the hospital and gave a call to him.
Joshua: Hey, how was your meeting?
Me: It was fine, I guess.
Joshua: You're lying. What did you actually do just now?
Me: What? I actually went to a meeting like really.
Joshua: You're lying because you are using the high pitch voice. Jagi, where did you actually go?
Me: I went for an appointment at the hospital. It's just the yearly check-up for models to go to. Everything is fine. I know you would make a big fuss over it, therefore, I lied.
Joshua: I don't!
Me: You definitely don't. I got to go. I'll see you later.
I took the taxi back to the dormitory and threw my bag on the floor as soon as I walked into my room.
It struck me.
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'You have a high possibility of having leukaemia but we need to do a thorough checking and you will have to come back to get the results after two days. Please be mentally prepared.' The doctor said as he put down a file.
The words were starting to play in my mind and I just can't control myself. I held my pillow, tears coming down from my eyes like a tap which can't be off.
I'm not ready to leave this world.
I'm not ready to leave everything behind.
Everything was starting to be working out for me.
I'm not ready to leave my family behind.
Seventeen.
Mingyu.
And most importantly, Joshua.
I held my head and cried. I cried and cried. Wishing that everything would just stop but it's not working. Things are meant to happen and I just have to accept it.
