Maybe its love: A Joshifer Fanfic

Chapter 11 : Fighting

Jen's POV:

I wake up before Josh. Slowly I tiptoe out of bed, careful not to wake him up.

My mind is racing, and my heart is pumping.

Did Josh and I really just have sex?

Flashbacks of it enter my mind. It was perfect, nothing I've ever experienced with anyone else.

I decide to make breakfast, so I head towards the kitchen.

I take out a box of lucky charms, two bowls, two spoons, and milk.

Just as I'm pouring Josh's milk he wakes up.

"Good morning," He says in his raspy morning voice.

"Good morning," I respond.

Josh walks over to me and kisses me.

"This feels like a dream," He whispers while holding me in his arms.

We pull away and start to eat breakfast when my phone rings.

I check the caller i.d.

"Who is it?" Josh asks.

"Nicholas," I say.

His jaw clenches as I pick up the phone.

"Hello," I answer.

"Hey Jen. I'm really sorry about last night," Nicholas says.

"It's fine I'm not mad anymore," I reply eating my cereal.

"Great! I want to make it up to you though," He says eagerly.

"Okay, how?" I ask.

"Well it's not official yet so for now ill take you on a romantic pizza date," Nicholas says.

A romantic pizza date is when Nicholas orders pizza, sets up candles all over his apartment, then puts on a romantic movie for us to watch and cuddle.

I almost want to break up with him, but I know the producers, my publicists, and my managers won't be happy if I do.

I'm faced with the dread of having to play along and act like a good girlfriend to Nicholas.

"Okay, when?" I ask.

"Tonight," Nicholas responds.

"Okay."

"I love you."

I lie by saying, "I love you too."

As I hang up the phone my mind is spinning. I love Josh and I want to be with him but I also still have feelings for Nicholas and care about him.

"What's he doing?" Josh grunts.

"I'm going over for dinner tonight," I say.

"Oh," Josh says, his smile vanishing.

"Come back tonight," I plead as he starts getting his stuff.

"I don't know if we should do this anymore," Josh admits.

"What! Why!" I ask alarmed, I need him.

"Look, you have Nicholas and I may or may not have Claudia. It's just not right," He says.

I stop him and wrap my arms around his neck. I search his eyes for the same Josh I experienced last night, but Josh just avoids my eyes.

"But I love you," I plead.

I kiss him passionately and feel a sense of relief as he kisses me back.

"I'll think about it," Josh tells me as he heads out the door.

I watch as he drives down the street, turns, and disappears.